The 111 portal transmission

I knew I wanted to share a channeled transmission on the 1.11.25 portal in order to bring through specific frequency codes, but I wasn't sure if something would move through me.

This came through around 12:30 a.m. like a waterfall of consciousness streaming through my mind. I'm also so delighted because I recorded this at the perfect time today and was able to publish at 1:11 p.m. central. How divine. 

I hope it makes sense. If not, go live your life for a while and then come back when you feel called because you'll see things with new eyes. :)

May your day be filled with blessings and new beginnings. 💛

Note: I swear when I'm passionate. Know that if you can't handle a few eff words from time-to-time, I get it, and you may want to find other people to tune into. I remember hearing a near-death experience story where the woman accidentally swore in God's presence and she begged for forgiveness. God (or the version she met) laughed and said that curse words bear no meaning in Heaven. It's humans who define their language and the intention behind their words.

Transcript

 Can I just tell you that I wasn't expecting  this level of love, um.  The messages you're sending me are making me tear up, I just, oh!  First, happy 1 1 1, which is January 11th, 20, words, 2025, thank you. Thank you for being with me. I, wow, my heart is so full. I can't even tell you. I For the past week have not been able to sleep Sometimes I struggle with this thing called like hypnic jerks, which is like a form of torture I don't fully understand why the human body has that other than to show you that your nervous system is probably Overactive or you're drinking too much caffeine or what?

You know, I just probably outed myself there. That's great. Okay But  hypnic jerks are where when right as you're about to fall asleep, your muscles spasm and they jerk you awake. So you are always on the precipice of falling asleep and then you are awake and then your body is filled with energy because it's a little bit nervous, right?

And so I have been navigating that for, I think, two weeks. Um, and I have a, I don't know,  my soul whispers that it's me trying to fall asleep. jolt myself into alignment and trying to get myself out of spaces and places where I'm no longer aligned. And it did this last year. And I had to work with Courtney Beck, who's one of my go to healers.

I work with her multiple times a year because I love her and profoundly trust her. And, um,  I decided that this time, if it were to happen again, I was just going to see If I could focus and,  and figure out what the deeper meaning is of these hypnic jerks. Well, last night, Was the first night where I was able to sleep for the whole night. 

And I think it's because I launched Insightful. So thank you for being with me. Happy 1 1 1. New beginnings, you know, beautiful magical things. I really wanted to get everything together in the back end to be able to bring this to reality so that I could hold myself accountable. But also I really, really, really wanted to drop a message Transcribed Today, on this specific day, um, recording the energies of today and I got, like, I didn't know what I wanted to say, honestly.

I was like, damn, what, what, well, if nothing comes through, that's fine. Like, at least I honored myself and brought this to the world and by the world, I mean to the people who are meant to receive these messages. Um, so again, thank you for being here. But last night as I was sitting on the couch and Nikolai was watching Outlander, I started feeling like this streaming of information flowing through my head and that usually feels like tingles or like, um, sometimes a waterfall happens where I feel that in my brain. 

And so I received this transmission last night and It's all around the 3rd dimension to the 5th dimension, and this is partially why I had to have a channel like this, because it's If you aren't remotely curious about energy or dimensional perspectives, you would just scroll right on by this and I understand, but you're here.

If you're not into expanding your consciousness, you can, um, have a beautiful day. I love you so much. I hope you have, you know, a wonderful one one one.  But if you're here for it, I wrote this down and I'm curious to see what lands, and it kind of reads as a  lesson or a teaching,  and I don't want it to sound robotic or anything like that, so I'm going to do my best to try to keep your attention, but also, there are some big concepts in here, and you may have to pause and noodle on it, or contemplate it, or just trust that I'm planting a seed.

That will bloom in divine timing when you are ready to hear and receive the deeper message This is what I've been learning on my journey for over, you know, most of my life is It's a really wonderful thing when you have a message or you receive a message and you get it on a logical level And then as you continue expanding your consciousness and becoming more aligned to your truth, you could watch Or read the same message, but you will get something different from it because you have a different perspective I actually just did this over new year's with the matrix.

I watched it like I don't even know 15 years ago  and then I watched it on new year's and Eve or whatever because what an incredible way to walk into 2025  and I saw so much  stuff I missed so much wisdom and esoteric knowledge and truths and I like if you haven't watched the matrix in a while 10 out of 10 I highly recommend because you are going to receive new insights that may Rock you and see and like you may see the world in a totally completely different way And if that doesn't resonate that's cool.

Okay, so let me drop you into this transmission because I wrote it this morning at  Like 12 30 in the morning  Okay. Hmm  if actually I'm hearing right now if you could just like take a nice deep breath in So much so that your lower belly fills with air  and then just slowly breathe out through your nose 

If you could do that again for me, just like a beautiful, gentle, deep inhale, allowing your lower belly to just fill with air as it moves up your stomach and expands in your chest. 

And then when it feels like the perfect time to just easily let that breath go through your nose, slowly, peacefully,  easily.  And when you feel like you're ready to take an inhale, this time imagine the breath moving in through your heart space. 

and then releasing out through your nose or mouth anything that you'd like to release today.  I'm asking to open your heart in ways that allow you to receive the message that is perfect for you, so let's begin. Here is the transmission on 1 1 1.  The third dimension is fear based. The fifth dimension is flow, trust, surrender, ease, and knowing. 

The way you access the magic of the fifth dimension is through your heart.  It literally bridges you from the third to the fifth.  Your heart has its own language, its own intelligence, with its very own neurons. It has its own voice, the voice of your soul.  Your heart resonates with the frequencies of love, compassion, joy, curiosity, hope, positivity, harmony, forgiveness, and peace. 

Those are the frequencies that bridge you to a higher dimension. 

Your heart knows what's ahead in your life because it can access your fifth dimensional perspective of knowing  that everything works out perfectly for you and in the most divine ways.  Your heart invites your third dimensional perspective to remember that your soul brings you exactly  what you need always. 

Because your soul has orchestrated this entire experience for your highest and greatest good. 

And your third dimensional self is gifted free will to choose the experiences it wishes because all roads lead to home anyways as an immortal being of light. This is a choose your own adventure.  An easier, more joyful, and by that I mean full of joy, life, experience.  The way you have that is by accessing these higher frequency states, which are found in the way your soul is flowing light to you. 

These easy, joyful, fun life experiences are found in aligning with your heart and how it is guiding you, which is why the teachings of follow your heart or follow your bliss are laced in Truths.  Follow the whispers to places and spaces where you lose track of time.  Because your heart speaks in joy and excitement and passion. 

The feelings that make you feel more alive.  These feelings are leading you to becoming, embodying, and being more of your soul.  So you're able to radiate more of your unique light.  Because time is so much less rigid in the fifth dimension. Time is malleable, like you can manipulate it playfully. This happens because you're in an expanded state, an expanded perspective. 

The third dimension is tick tock on the clock. Because stress, anxiety, pain, and fear activate your sympathetic nervous system, which shifts you into fight, flight, fawn, or freeze.  In these spaces is where you see with tunnel vision.  Because being able to only see behind you or backwards, which is your past,  through vehicles like traumatic memories, or memories where you feel shame or grief or judgment,  As well as seeing ahead of you, forward, through vehicles of anxiety and worry. 

Well those, they're survival mechanisms.  Because living a linear life rooted in pain or anxiety  means you're easily manipulated by fear and those who wield fear as an experience  and also as an opportunity for you to remember who you really are as a powerful creator.  It's as if time slows down when there's danger, so you can make calculated decisions for self preservation. 

Or, time seems to stretch out in ways that feel like agony.  Who would know better than someone who believes they're trapped by time?  Someone who watches the clock strike slowly, wishing, and hoping, and pleading with time to speed up, so you could finally be free of this moment, situation, experience, or thought loop. 

Like having to be in a job or relationship you don't actually want to be in but you're too afraid to follow your heart to doing the xyz thing that feels aligned or expansive  because of the third dimensional reality experiences of greed, rage, control, fear.  These are the gifts that contrast brings you. 

You also experience this agony of time when you're in a deep state of suffering or grief  where your closest friends Our apathy, shame, or despair.  Where loneliness seduces you into believing that you are unloved, broken, or separate from the whole.  Your linear thinking or perspective can be shifted from a straight line, which is the past or future, by connecting those points of time and perspectives, into a triangle or a pyramid, which is found by becoming present. 

Your full conscious presence makes you the observer of all situations and experiences. It does not define things because it does not need to decide what is light or dark.  It just is.  The observer is able to access infinite intelligence or knowing. The observer can perceive divine guidance because it trusts each and every thought. 

Well, how do you become present? You may be wondering.  We find the stillness in a racing mind,  a racing mind that's normally the product of its environment as a third dimensional being locked in states of fear or survival.  This is why your brain doesn't know what you are truly fully capable of.  This is why the media and messaging and the ways our systems are controlled are beginning to shift. 

But when you find or discover forgiveness, compassion, kindness, or you simply decide to release what's weighing you down, you expand yourself in love by achieving an enlightened perspective,  a brighter way  of knowing and being.  This is also why your soul rejoices in hardship, challenges, and obstacles in life.

In the third dimensional perspective of itself,  because it means you'll be able to grow an awareness of your one true self, a unique being born of unconditional love and light.  The fifth dimension  is trusting the flow of the river of the divine,  trusting that challenges or obstacles you meet are happening for you because it's already been pre planned by you. 

And I know most would not be able to hear that, especially because of what's happening in the world with natural disasters, war, debt, hunger, greed, death.  But know that the more you heal,  accept, forgive, acknowledge, and trust yourself,  the more enriching the journey you'll experience as you flow from the third dimension to the fifth.

through your heart gateway or portal.  Because the fifth dimensional version of you knows you're whole, worthy, perfect, safe, enough, treasured,  your journey to awakening or frequency ascension is simply a remembering of these truths.  So focus on how you feel.  Sit with the heavier or denser emotions and hold yourself with grace and compassion as you integrate more and more shadowy parts of yourself into unity and harmony. 

You're quite literally harmonizing frequencies to remember your wholeness  and your wholeness feels good.  So the questions I'll leave you with now is,  how can you be more loving to yourself?  How will you follow the path of love?  And how will you specifically find presence knowing it's cultivated from places of stillness, meditation, and meditation?

creation, play, or intentional choice to gently bring your focus and perspective back to the now moment.  I hope that that brings you some form of clarity or maybe starts to broaden your perspective about the third dimension or the fifth dimension because right now we're, we're beginning to bridge and this is why I'm on the planet.

Um,  I actually had a session with this woman who I listened to on a podcast once. Her name is Nilam Sareen and I just, I don't know why I just felt, and I don't even listen to the podcast she was on. I just was at work trying to find something that would help me feel uplifted. And so I saw her on this podcast and I was like, Oh cool.

So I clicked on her and she started speaking and something hit me in my heart and I was like, Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa.  This. What, who is this woman? And so she had this soul healing, um, Opportunity or whatever to work with her in a one on one capacity. And so my birthday is in October. I'm a Scorpio, baby. Mmm, but I was like, okay.

Well, uh, her only opening is January 9th And I'm like damn that's so far from now, which is okay. So I have been waiting, um, and anticipating my session with her just because I'm so curious, right? Like, I love supporting, um, you know, soulful entrepreneurs.  So I had this session with her and I'll, I'll share more later because it's really profound, but the thing that came through so clearly for why things have been so hard for me the past Um, the past two years, especially because I had been in business for two full years before I was walked back to corporate, um, which was one of the hardest,  Oh, it was one of the hardest times of times in my life.

I actually  am going to be in a book about it. That's publishing in March with, uh, 32 others. So we have 33 women who are sharing their spiritual awakening journeys. And I share that one. Um, Um, it, it was one of the hardest times of my life and I now see with immense fucking gratitude why I walked that,  um, but I realized it's because outside of clearing my karmic boards and my karmic debt and, um, going through my own processes of healing my own shadows and integrating them, right? 

I learned that I was close in my business, like I was close as a heart healer. I also lost myself because  I, I know I'm here to help people heal their hearts. I know that when people are in my spaces, they say things, and I'm like, man, I can't even believe this is my life, but they say things like, I've never even shared this with a therapist.

I don't know why I shared this with you. Or they'll be like, I just met you and I told you these things that I rarely tell anyone. And I'm like, I. I don't know what that is, okay, but  now I know  and it's because I have, um, I have walked through so much trauma. Very few people know the depth of trauma that I've, I've navigated on purpose because it's not the trauma that makes me who I am.

It's what I did with the trauma and how I decided to transmute the pain and the suffering into something that could make me more loving, honestly, more aware, more compassionate, more able to freely forgive. So I learned from her that  I'm here to bridge, to serve as a bridge of helping people move from the third dimensional perspective to the fifth and that happens through the heart.

And I'm actually here to weave through And this is the part that I have to sit with and I understand now why,  I,  uh, why rainbows have been coming through for me so much. She shared that I channel source codes of unconditional love and light and that I weave through rainbow frequencies and there's a version of me who would have scoffed and judged at that and been like, I'm actually, I can't, I, rainbows?

Like for real? I like that feel so. Like fairy ish and light and ethereal and that's not me and I'm like it is me actually  So what happens is when people work with me? I can channel these healing codes to help people bridge to the fifth dimension. I work with the angelic kingdoms I work with source consciousness.

I work with the Rainbow Collective and the Sophia dragons and I I sound like To myself, I sound insane saying that out loud, but there's a reason why rainbows have been like slapping me in the freaking face I swear to you every day. I get rainbow symbolism. I like I have a whole story around that I've been seeing dragons everywhere.

Granted dragons are coming back anyway  And I've always believed in fairies. I've literally seen fairies. I've seen  Angelic frequencies like I know I know this stuff. I just wasn't ready to embrace this  Playful Lightness. And this deep healing and this ability to be able to help people um heal from grief and suffering and trauma and pain and wounding and I lost myself for so long because I was like People don't understand the heart the art the the art  The heart is too flowery.

People think it's only about love, but really it's like heartbreak and heart shatter and heart shattering and it's a portal to you. It's a gateway. There's so much from the heart that's always being channeled through us, but we close ourselves off from receiving those or experiencing it. We shut ourselves down from light and love in these beautiful etheric frequencies that are here to help guide us to more of our soul knowing, you know, like,  but I've been so afraid.

So what did I do? I followed partially my heart, but mainly my mind to certifications focused on neurolinguistic programming and the subconscious mind and hypnosis and stuff like that. Because I was like, people understand the brain. If I can tell them that 95 plus percent of your daily thoughts, habits.

actions, behaviors, and that this is why you do these things based on your limiting beliefs, and that if we can go and rewire your brain and help you regulate your nervous system in a way where you create coherence between your brain and your heart, like, this is where the magic is. And you know what?

People didn't really care  when I brought this forward.  They really didn't. And like,  I understand because it wasn't fully aligned to me. Granted, I will say that going through all of that experience Oh my god, my cat is trying to get out. I'm sorry. This is, oh, give me a moment. 

Ha  ha ha ha.  Silly little beast.  Thank you for listening to this as I'm not editing that out. God, I am sweating. I'm sweating. Okay?  And I lost my train of thought, which is cool and divine.  all of that to say, I understand now why things didn't work out exactly as they were meant to, but I also appreciate everything that I learned about the subconscious mind and about nervous system regulation, because heart brain coherence is where the magic is, and following your heart, and allowing yourself to Sit with your emotion, those big fucking emotions, man, those dark ones, those heavy ones, those dense ones, and to  just see them and acknowledge them  and maybe even have a conversation with them from a place of compassion and, and non judgment because when you feel big emotions, they're tied to you.

You know, belief structures. And when you go deeper into the beliefs, that's how you can look at it and then see it as nonsensical and release it. And that's a process. You have to be courageous enough to take yourself down, you know? And a lot of people don't know what's possible for them. They just try to bypass it and they think if I, you know, scroll for hours on my phone or if I spend money, um, on all these things or if I, numb out with alcohol, which I have done, man.

Like, I'll share more about that later, but alcohol was one of my best friends and people had no idea. Because, I know, I know what, how you're supposed to present yourself, right? Like, people wouldn't have known and that's cool because I needed it. I needed that coping mechanism until it no longer resonated, and I became more aware, but  we, we spend, and we consume, and we numb out from ourselves, and that's not, that's not how you're going to access, More of your intuitive gifts, more of your magic, more of your, your beautiful purpose that only you can bring through.

And I'm realizing, like, I fucking am here for the heart, man. Like, this is why you feel the passion in me, because I'm like, oh my god, I was so close. I just,  I took myself on a little side adventure. So, All that to say, thanks for being with me today on the 111 portal and listening to all of this and having grace as I continue to, you know, figure out this whole thing that I'm doing, but I love you.

I'm grateful for you and I hope that you have a beautiful, wonderful, magical day.