When fear is so damn loud

As fear fuels the machine, so to can we remember that love is more powerful than anything in the entire universe.

Love is who and what you are always and forever.

As Bashar teaches, "Love is the frequency of existence itself."

I love you. I'm grateful for you. Thank you for the light you anchor on Earth. 💛

P.S. I absolutely remembered his name after ending the recording!! His name is Dr. Zach Bush and he's phenomenal. You can feel it when he speaks because his message flows through his heart. :)

Transcript

 Today is January 23rd and I cannot tell you what, like, how happy I am. I live in, uh, the north, right? I live in Minnesota and it's 5:22 and there's still light in the sky. I, oh, I have been waiting for this. I can't even, my god, it's so bright out. It's like, what, is it spring? No, it's not spring but it feels like it a little bit here with the sun out.

Uh, that was a random tangent. You're welcome and also sorry. A little bit. I, uh, I felt so much energy yesterday that was just really dense and heavy and dark and I meditated for 30 minutes and I, you know, did yoga and just, I tried to listen to self as yo frequencies and things weren't shaking it. So  I'm like, what the hell is this?

Okay, well, what I do typically as like one of my last resorts if I'm not doing emotional freedom techniques, which if you don't know that what that is, it's tapping and you can tap on certain points on your body to be able to move energy and it's actually really incredible for rewiring limiting beliefs But more on that another time, you know So what I usually do is I take Epsom salt bath or a shower and use Epsom salts So I got this fabulous bag from Whole Foods, which is rose I was gonna say flavored.

Ooh, that's not correct.  Scented.  Um, rose scented salts, right?  And so, I was like, man, you know, I just need to be by myself. I need to be not around all of the animals that Nikolai and I have. I need to just have it be a very easy, simple place for my energy To just go and process whatever is trying to make itself known in my psyche or energetically So I go I turn on the shower and I leave all the lights off and I step into the shower and usually for me I get a lot of my downloads or messages coming through when I shower because when you're in that state It's a place called Theta in your brain waves.

So it's Theta brain waves. And that usually happens when you're doing something that you have done multiple times where your brain doesn't consciously need to be there. So it kind of like takes a backseat and that's, and water, you know, water is consciousness. So to be able to connect in that way.  But as I was sitting there in the darkness with this beautiful hot water Rushing over me and I just created the space just let my brain breathe maybe if that's a way to say I just let myself be  and All of a sudden this message came through and I I posted it on threads granted I know not everyone likes to read but I I shared it there So I'm gonna read it because this is verbatim what came through  You know how when you're in a room and you turn off all the lights,  all you can see in that moment is this looming All encompassing darkness,  but with enough patience  your eyes adjust and suddenly you can see more clearly. 

That's where we are right now,  in the darkness, so your vision can evolve.  Hold hope in your heart, my friend.  And I wanted to expand on that a little bit, because, you know,  a number of people are afraid of the dark, right? And it's because we're taught that dark is bad, it's good and evil, we live in duality, right?

Right and wrong.  And so we make things mean something. We make them We are, we define them in certain ways to be able to match our meaning or to be able to make sense of the world or based on our programming and conditioning and stuff and what we're seeing, at least in the States, is like,  it's unfathomable, the fact that we are seeing on full display such a level of hate, right, and control and manipulation and also I just want to say, isn't it interesting that you,  you could hold positions of power and And use them to weaponize fear and hate and greed.

And you would do that in such a way that you think you're powerful. My god, I've never seen someone with such a small amount of power in my life as watching someone.  Hold that office in that way and write these things into fruition and trying to cause so much separation,  so much fear,  in the name of saying things like we're making it better.

I just, oh my god,  off of my soapbox for a moment.  We're at a time right now where everything is dark and heavy. 

And it's because we need to see, but the way that you develop your sight is by allowing yourself to see differently, to see from a different perspective or to have to have something so confronting and challenging and scary to look at you in the face so that you can see it for what it is.  That's where we are right now.

And I think we're just, we're seeing only darkness because we're in the process of remembering our light. We're in the process of remembering our power. We're remembering that together we're better. Together we thrive. When, when we treat each other well and we take care of each other and we love one another and we share and we give and receive and we bring our gifts to the world in only the ways that we're meant to, like, that is where the shift happens, you know? 

But, fear is so loud, it's so Loud, and it feels like it's the only thing that you can hear right now at least if you're on social media, right? And you're watching the news and you're seeing these heinous things happen. If all you can see is the darkness, know that part of it is you are facing yourself.

We're in this moment right now where we are being invited to, instead of look outside of ourselves, to try and figure out whatever the fuck this is, when we go within and we see, okay,  who am I?  In this grand tapestry of the universe, who am I in, uh, in all this darkness? Like, how,  how can I be in the world?

And what is that quote by Gandhi? It's like, be the change you wish to see in the world.  That starts with us, you know? And it starts with you looking at all of the things that you judge about yourself, the things you're afraid of, the things that you  You can't stand about you, or you judge, or you minimize, or you belittle, or your trauma, or your wounds, your shadows, that's what that is, your shadows, your limiting beliefs, all of these quote unquote dark negative things, they're all parts of you that are begging to be seen right now.

They're asking to be looked at and acknowledged and to be integrated into the wholeness of who you actually are.  And,  part of the thing about being on Earth, is that it's this incredible school for masters. Like, you come here because, as Bashar says, which, if you don't know who Bashar is, he is a channeler of this interdimensional being who is basically him but 500 years in the future because time doesn't exist.

And he channels wisdom for collective consciousness awakening. And that may sound bizarre to you, and that's cool. Just, just play with resonance and see. You know, like someday you may have him come up across your feet and you'll be like, Hey, Bajor, that's cool. You know, um, I lost my train of thought because I just saw the brightest flash of blue light. 

God, they do that, man. The spirits do that. Or maybe it was a Palladian. Oh  God, so many things.  Um, You're integrating into your wholeness. So part of the thing about being on earth and becoming a master of limitation Which is what Bashar teaches is actually who we are. People think like, oh, this is a planet for kindergartners It's not.

You come here because you want to play in limitation because this is one of the most challenging places to be because of contrast because you are forced to face hardship and pain and suffering and grief and sorrow and and hate and all of these things so that you could remember who you are  That you could see your light even more clearly, so you could see yourself even more  clearly. 

And that happens when we're faced,  I was going to say faced head on, when we're face to face with ourselves, with the things we don't want to see within us, right? Knowing that the more that you become true to yourself, more whole, more of your authentic being, you radiate that naturally in the world, right?

And when you are more true to your heart, and you are more true to the love that you actually physically are,  emotionally, multi dimensionally, all these things, the more true to you that you are,  That gives other people permission to do the same. And also, you're probably going to act differently. You're probably not going to resonate with lower level fear based messages.

You're probably not going to get caught up in the chaos. You're probably going to have higher level perspectives for things. You're going to see things differently, right? Like I said, when you are, when you sit in the darkness, your vision evolves. It shifts. It adapts. Things become clearer.  In doing so, you're able to then  take different action, you're able to create more cohesion with other people, you're able to see people's, you know, behaviors for what they are, knowing, again, like, from the last episode, if you listen to that, like, you're able to see their light, even if All you see emanating from them is darkness,  because that's not the truth of who they are.

It's their programming. It's their fear. It's whatever else is manipulating the situation, you know?  So I just wanted to let you know that if everything is dark and it's heavy and it feels like we're being choked out, like our light is being snuffed out, in no way could that ever happen.  Because you're an infinite being, you know?

You are an infinite, immortal being of light, of unconditional love. Like you, You were born the moment that all of existence was. You were.  You are so bright.  Like I, oh man, I heard this quote from Oh, what's his name?  You know what? It's going to come to me when I close out this episode and that's going to be great.

I remember he's a wonderful doctor who decided to no longer be a doctor. Um, but one of the things that he shared, God, I wish I could, you probably already know his name too. He's so beautiful. He's such a beautiful teacher. I'll link him in the show notes, but he had shared that  when you You are incarnated, which I think it takes 45 or 49 days for your pineal gland to fully form.

When your light is brought in to the pineal gland into that little form of who you are, your light is 10, 000 times brighter than the sun.  Like,  can you just understand?  You are so not  the vessel that you walk in, and yet you are at the same time. Like, you are everything all at once. You are everything all at once. 

That's why it can feel so confronting to look at the shadow and the darkness and other people and be like,  How could you? How dare you? You, like, you're XYZ, Judgmental, and,  and I get it, right? Because there are people who have been on the planet who have committed horrific atrocities. And then you also remember that in the life review you have to feel what those people felt when you caused them pain harm. 

suffering.  You have to feel that. You have to feel that experience, right? Because we are all one. Like, we're all the same. We're all fractals again. We're all woven from the same tapestry, you know? We just forget  because we come here to remember who we are and to bring our gifts online and to help the earth that we get to be on, this gorgeous, incredible being.

We get to be on this living, breathing goddess.  As a fractal of God, you know, as a light. So while everything is dark and it just feels like it's It's never going to end and it's all consuming. Trust that it will.  Trust that every time you choose love, it will. Trust that you're making ripples into waves that expand into the cosmos, you know, like what we're going through right now from a planetary perspective is literally impacting and infecting, infecting.

Oh no, that was, was that a Freudian slip? I don't know. Sometimes also today, I even tried to film a TikTok video, but my words aren't coming out clearly. And maybe it's because I'm trying to force it and it's not ready yet. But I also have this burning desire in my heart to just speak my truth. Knowing that if I can remind you that you are loved and you are all powerful in a world that tries to tell you you're not, maybe that external message will impact you differently.

Maybe it won't hit you so deep. Maybe,  maybe you'll just let it go. Maybe you'll see it for what it is. Fear fuels the machine.  But you're not a machine. You're an infinite being. You are a literal god or goddess, truly. You just have been taught to believe you're not, you know? And how silly is that? But we're here to remember and to reawaken those parts of us  that are like, oh, yeah, I'm a badass. 

I am an incredible being of divinity. I just I'm remembering, you know, and although the darkness is heavy, that's okay  because we're working on shifting it. I don't know if you, on social media, like I'm seeing so much light, but people can't see it because they're so focused on the dark. They're so focused on everything. 

That's so loud.  And I get it, because you've been taught to do that and to listen and to tune into those frequencies because that's a way that you're manipulated and controlled, right?  I also wanted to share with you, it was so interesting because I, I don't hang out on social media a lot because it's, uh,  It takes a lot of energy and I like to do it when I'm really only present.

But I came across a quote that was from Abraham Hicks, which I don't know if you follow. Um, they're a channeler. They, they've been doing it for like quite a while now. Um, oh, I sent it to an, I sent it in an email to myself. I just wanted to pull it up.  So this was an older recording from Abraham and this ties in with what I was just talking about.

I think, I don't know, sometimes I think about how I'm talking to you and I go on this like jumbled adventure, but I'm like, you know what? At the end of the day, all roads lead to home and people will get exactly what they need to when they're meant to. So I just trust that even if I don't make total complete.

sense.  So this is what, and this pertains to me and my journey, but also I thought maybe you would love it.  Abraham Hicks channeled, because every time you identify the reason that you don't have it, that reason holds you in the place of not having. Give no more excuses to anything. I'll say that again. 

Because every time you identify the reason that you don't have it, that reason holds you in the place of not having. Give no more excuses to anything. And I love that. Partially, partially, candidly, I get really frustrated being in a day job because it's not where I want to be. It's not where I want to spend my time and my life force energy.

It's not fulfilling, right? Like, I don't want to write about IT shit. I really don't. I can't, oh god, I can't. I don't understand it. I don't like the hierarchy and the structure and I don't like the politics and the lies and the greed and I don't, I don't like having to sit at a computer for eight plus hours a day.

For why? Like, why can't I go live my life, right? Like, I want to live more than I work. That's what I want.  But I find myself getting stuck in my own mental narratives, focusing on how I'm not where I want to be, how I'm not full time in my business yet because it can't sustain me, how people aren't engaging with my content on social, so it must mean that they don't care, how people at my work don't really want to hear my ideas even though I know from the depth of my being what would make a meaningful impact and difference. 

And that is my own shit, and I share that with you because I can't share it on my social platforms, because if you talk about certain things, then you could get fired, you know? Like, I totally get it. I understand, and I'm tired of corporate America, but I realized yesterday after hearing that quote about every time you identify the reason that you don't have it, that reason holds you in the place of not having.

It's because it's energetic, and what's happening there is where, like, they teach you this in personal development, but it It's because it works with the subconscious mind  where you place your focus and attention is where your energy goes It's it's where your flow is is where you're focusing your attention So if you're focusing on the things you don't have you will experience more lack You'll experience more of not having that thing and I'm like, oh my god I freaking know this man.

Like I know this stuff, but I forget it because I get so Entrenched into my own mental narratives, you know, so it's like instead of Focusing on what I don't have and what I don't, like, and being in places I don't want to be.  Shifting it into, like, what is the good, the beautiful, the magical, the things I am experiencing that are positive.

Because, as Abraham actually teaches, it's about the feeling of the thing, right? Like, if you are operating or vacillating in a space of joy and love and gratitude and appreciation and things like that, those are heart centered feelings and emotions, the language of your soul.  Like when you are in doubt or scarcity or worry or fear, like those, those are speaking on different radio stations.

You're tuned into different things. Every single thing that you probably desire from a heart centered place, not an ego centered place, those things that you deeply desire, they're on a different frequency. They're on the frequency of love and appreciation and excitement and joy and passion and gratitude, right?

Versus where you probably are, where you're paying your focus and attention and where you're investing that into spaces you don't want to be in, places you don't want to be, I mean, how are you going to experience and bridge that into the things you do want, you know? And that's why in spirituality they are always teaching about gratitude and appreciation because Those are the frequencies that help you honor what you have now and help you be present to the good that you already have in your life, that you are telling the universe and source, listen, I am grateful for this thing that I have right now, even if it's something so small. 

Because that energy grows, right? Like, that is the seed that can plant an entire garden of wildflowers if you allowed it. You garden with gratitude. It's so stunning, and yet, we forget it. Because we're so focused externally and seeing what's happening in the world and all the atrocities, which I totally understand because, collectively, we're in this together.

And also, you are on your own sovereign path. And there are things I cannot talk about. Like, even this right here saying like, yes, it's hard out there  and it's confronting and it's challenging and it's triggering and it's scary and also there's so much light within me that that wishes to pour out and to remind people that you are loved unconditionally, you are supported, that if you knew how truly deeply profoundly supported you are, you would not waver on your path.

You would not think you could ever take a misstep because you are guided and you are held and you are loved, you know, but people are like  so  Stuck in the fear and that  is where they want you to be.  They want you to focus on what you don't have. They want you to understand and believe like, God, it's gotta be, it's gonna be so hard.

It's so hard for you. It's scary. We could take your house, your job, your food. We could take all of this. We could deport you from, oh man, that's another story. Okay.  Just, mm,  cause if like you're not Native American, ha, I mean.  Aren't we all not supposed to be here then? I don't know. That's just, ooh, that's a thought for another day. 

But really, we're all made from Gaia. We are. I actually had a session with a woman. Her name's Bella.  Not Bella. Oh, she channels Bella. She told me in session with her, because one of the things that I do is I, right, you probably already know this. Am I rambling? I don't know. Where you, I, oh god, train of thought. 

Come back.  I like to buy myself sessions working with healers because  I believe in supporting small business and I believe in amplifying people's magic and often I bring them on to my Free Your Heart podcast because I believe in them.  So I had a session with Bella and she's told me one of the most beautiful things.

She said, we are all manifestations of Gaia's imagination.  And that touches me  because we were dreamed of before we got here.  We were  literally chosen for a specific. vehicle  for our consciousness to be able to walk through earth with, to be able to bring our unique frequencies and gifts,  to be able to bring our unique perspectives, to be able to contribute,  oh, the dogs are going crazy, sorry,  to be able to contribute to the grand web of life. 

That is the truth of who you are. You are a manifestation of God's imagination, and you are also a fractal of unconditional love.  I hope that supports you today. And if the fear is too loud, take a step back.  Turn down the volume of the fear and the things that you are consuming and instead go be in nature.

Take yourself for a walk, drink water, go be in a shower with some Epsom salts,  like Listen to beautiful music. Watch something funny. Laughter is one of the fastest ways that you can change your frequency to higher states. So find something that makes you laugh. Paint, create, draw, dance, sing. Connect with someone you love.

Send a message out to someone that you were just thinking of just because. Just to say hey. Just because it's random. Just because it's a little act of love.  Do something that makes you feel fulfilled. And then come back from that place because that's where we change. That's where we make meaningful impact.

That's how we help raise the frequency and that's how we start bridging from the third dimension of this fear based duality space into higher frequencies of loving consciousness.  Our gifts are coming online. Trust that. Trust that you are light embodied because you are. I love you and I hope you have a beautiful, wonderful, magical day.