My dog taught me how to manifest money

I can wait to tell you about my experience with an animal communicator and the wisdom my German Shepherd, Kuda, had to share with me ... because WOW! 🤩

I'm also sharing about:

• One of the ways my guides and angels communicate with me
• The painful experience a gecko (cursed art!?) brought me
• A memory I had of a past life incarnation with my Tuxedo kitty, Fern (who also goes by Fernie Bernie Puddin' Pop)

I worked with Johanna of Bloom Animal Communication and it was INCREDIBLE! You can book with her here. 🐾

Note: If you do work with Johanna, can you let her know I sent you her way? It's not that I receive anything, but it makes me sooooo happy to have her know that I had such a wonderful experience that I wanted to tell my friends about her gifts. Her energy is beautiful! :)

Double note: Make sure you have a few questions you want to ask your furry family. One of the most enlightening ones was how can I love them in ways that helps make their life more enriching. 💛

P.S. Thank you for sharing your abundance with me and supporting my work through the support the show link. I am SO grateful! Every time I receive a notification from Buy Me A Coffee I literally scream and dance because you're supporting my biggest dreams! 🥹

Transcript

 Hello, hello. Oh my gosh, I have so many things to share with you. I always do. Do I say that every time? It's fine. Is it fine? I don't know. But I'm, like, so pumped about this one because I had a session with an animal communicator that I've been following for a while just, you know, catching a vibe and things.

And so I held, or I had the session with her for my two dogs and then I booked in in March for my two cats  because it was so amazing! Ah, but first, before I talk about that and, like, you know, give her a shout out and things.  I, yesterday, had probably one of the hardest days at work, and sometimes I feel like, am I talking about And complaining about work too much, like, is there this tiny violin playing for me every time and I don't want to be annoying and things like that, but then on the flip side, I am reminded that so many of us are put into places because we are meant to expand through them and also because our light is meant to be in very specific  And corporate is the system that I'm trying or meant to be in for many lessons and many reasons.

Um, one of which, oh my god, oh my god, I, ooh. Ooh, I am, I wrote a chapter to be part of a book where 32 other women, so 33 women total, are sharing their spiritual awakening journeys and that book is coming out in May and I'm so excited mainly because I had a lot of shit around writing it and I had a lot of limiting beliefs come up around who am I to contribute to this, like, Is my journey really a spiritually, you know, awakening journey in this way?

And will anyone get anything out of it? And then when I had to write it, I had so many blocks around even just starting and trying to get myself to do it because I was so resistant.  And then I was like, wait,  um, I totally can do this. And when I allowed myself to just, Play and just be like just talk about your experience Ash.

It's fine. Like let it flow through you. What happened? What do you think like give a snippet paint a picture and then when I started writing it in my notes app as I write all things my my social media Messages, all those things start in my notes app or they start in threads Because I like the way that threads feels intimate or my notes app feels like a brain dump Basically when I started letting myself do that everything was flowing and I was like, oh man,  this is gonna be fire  So that's coming out in May and you'll hear more about it.

I'm really excited especially because I  Getting to be in something like having my messages be on printed pages that's that's bound together with other women's voices and their experiences and they're all different they're all going to be so cool like you're going to get tangible insights you're going to get information and resources on how to navigate your own spiritual awakening journey you're going to get to see how gritty and raw and messy and painful and challenging and exciting and magical it is to go through these processes of remembering yourself and expanding into more of your soul's awareness.

Like, you're gonna get to hold that in your hands. Do you know how crazy that is? That is so cool! And partially because it's a dream I never thought I would fulfill, honestly. When I was younger, I loved writing. I loved writing poetry and stories and all these things, but I never thought I was a writer.

And then it took, like, Uh, maybe two years ago where I realized, like, wait, I actually am a writer. I'm a professional writer, in fact. I'm paid every single day to write, which is, like, oh,  why can't I be in a book? In the same way, like, why can't you be in a book? And, and there are people that I meet. Even this woman, who I had an animal communication session with, I was like, man, I would read your book in a heartbeat.

And it's been really fun to reflect that to people who maybe have never thought about being able to do that, right? Because everyone has stories and everyone has wisdom to share. We are just taught to be small and to not believe in ourselves. And that's actually going to be changing,  which is fun. And I love that for us, but I was gonna say,  going back to my job, it was really, really, really difficult yesterday and I, something that I've been doing at night is, this may sound weird, I don't know, is it weird? 

I take a shower in the dark and I like it specific, sometimes with like a teeny light or whatever, but mainly  Mainly the darkness  because there's something about being under or like in water with  just having it be silent and then not having any other stimulus, I guess. It's really calming for my nervous system, but one of the things that I've been doing is doing a cord cutting ritual.

And, you know, just visualizing myself having my energy being cleaned from the water. I ask the water out loud if it would be, um, open to healing me and releasing anything that's stuck in my energy fields, my auric fields, my mental, physical, spiritual, emotional bodies to ask the water to help me to clear that and let it go and to have it be transmuted into love so that I can, um, you know, reintegrate with the earth from a higher loving perspective and consciousness energy. 

And, it's been really helpful because yesterday I had, um, the insight that the reason why my day was so tricky with this job, outside of it being misaligned now, I feel complete with it. I feel done. I feel like I've gotten what I've needed to and now I'm like, oh, what's next? You know? Um, is that I had a massive energy cord connected to me.

To someone that I work with and the way that her energy is flowing through she's very She's in a space of deep bitterness and resentment and I forget how sensitive I am to people's energy. I'm like a sponge, which is why it's really helpful to work from home in like my little space, you know, where it's like everything has its energetic place and I clear the energy and I listen to self asio frequencies or to handpan from Malt Martin, which by the way, he is amazing. 

He's so amazing. I can't eat. Oh God. I could listen to those all day.  But  everything is the way that I have it set so that I thrive, right? And then you go into these environments where there's a lot of different energies around and, um, people were getting news they absolutely did not want to hear, and that impacted the energy around me.

And then being around this person completely just, Just dropped me into a place that was so dark and I'm like, this is what is happening I do not feel like myself and then I took the shower and I you know Worked to clean my energy and I cut the cords and then I went to bed because I could still feel this lingering Energy, which you know, maybe I didn't do the clearing fully but there's a reason right? 

So as I was in bed, I asked my soul and my spirit guides out loud, I asked, Could you please help shift the energy in my heart and allow me to release the weight that I feel my body is carrying? Please, you know, help me move through this with grace and ease. And this morning, I woke up with the song lyrics from Unstoppable from Sia.

I just kept hearing about how I'm unstoppable today, unstoppable today, I'm unstoppable today. And it just kept playing on repeat where I heard, I put my armor on, show you how strong I am, I put my armor on, I'll show you that I am. I'm unstoppable today.  I don't know if you know this or maybe you've experienced this, but clear audience, one of the ways that my guides speak to me and through me is through song lyrics because they are symbolic messages.

And usually I know what the meaning is. I mean, this one's pretty clear, but I'll share other instances in future episodes, especially when they come through, and to share what I think it means. Because Different spirit energies, whether it's the angelic realm or different interdimensional beings that I work with or ancestors, they share different songs with me.

And so today was a new one and having unstoppable and I woke up hearing those lyrics, but also I felt joy in my heart again. I felt like my being was lighter. I felt like me and I, I was like, Oh,  there we go. I'm reminded that you're. Spirit guides, your spirit team, angel, we have a lot of unemployed angels on the planet right now because consciousness is shifting and they're unemployed, right?

Like, that sounds silly, but they're looking for jobs, they're looking to support in any way they can because we are fractals of God and they are here supporting all of us. And that's one of the gifts we have, but they cannot intervene with your free will.  Because your sovereignty  is a gift that you are given, your free will is a gift that you are given, so that you could experience life in ways where you know that you are a master level creator, or even if you don't know, right?

taking yourself on the journey of remembering who you are and how powerful you are. And we go through experiences where we forget and, or we get tunnel vision. I get tunnel vision quite often. I'm not going to lie to you, especially in corporate. Um, but then it's the journey of remembering how powerful I am and how powerful you are.

So ask for help. Ask out loud. Truly ask out loud. No ask is too small or too big. And you can have an angel that will help you for anything. Uh, more often now, I hope. Maybe this will plant a seed in you,  but if you're traveling, even if you're in a car going from A to B, ask for an angel's help in getting you there safely.

Because, again, no ask is too small, and they're happy to help. Maybe, you know, there's something, if you have a business, asking for support in your business, or inspired ideas to flow through you with ease and grace, right? Or, um, helping you with a relationship issue, or helping you with your intuition, or whatever it is, you know?

Ask for help because they're here. And I just, I woke up with those lyrics on my heart and I was like, Oh yeah, I'm self supported. It's okay to ask. I don't have to move through the world like a lone wolf, you know, like I can receive the support because the more I'm open to receiving, the more I'm going to receive.

What a thought, right? What a thought. And yet we are not programmed to think that way on purpose. Right. Because, um, there are very specific malevolent forces that do not want you to remember your divinity. And if you are in the spiritual spaces, they say that it's a spiritual war on consciousness. And that's why we have things like doom scrolling and trying to keep you numb. 

overflowing your mind with information that's fear based, right? Fear feeds the machine. Love expands. Fear is controlling. Love is the truth of everything, right? Even the darkness doesn't know that they're love shadowed. And that's okay, but You are more powerful than any system in place, period. And I need you to hear that.

You are more powerful than the economy, than the fear based rhetoric that is being pumped in all social media channels. You are so much more powerful because you are divinity embodied.  Just  I'm gonna leave that there.  So I, I was like, man, do I tell my friends today about the session I had with a woman who channels the angelic realm, or do I share about the session I had with the animal communicator?

So, um, I kind of had a lot of mental stuff around this, to be fair, because I'm like, does it make me sound like I'm always seeking for outside guidance, um, to share these people? But then I was like, you know what? To be To be fair to myself, I love amplifying people's work in the world when I have specifically worked with them and I know and trust them because then I have an embodied experience.

Like I'm never going to share someone with you that wasn't just incredible for me. Why would I do that? Right? I don't like when I work with these people, I don't get anything in return. I just do it because I love it. And also because, to me, there is no,  there's no greater.  Um, like way for business to grow than through word of mouth for me specifically, um, because word of mouth means I love you.

And because I love you, I'm going to share  from a place of deep trust, right? Like I'm not going to share anyone with you who I think is like selling snake oil or who isn't in integrity or on any of those things, right? Because  the people who have been referred to me.  And have worked with me for my heart healing sessions and things.

It's such, I'm like, shut up. This is such an honor. You, you love them so much that you would share my work with them because you trust me, because you believe in me, because you know that what I offer is, you know, transformational. Thank you so much. So today I wanted to share my session with you  with Johanna from Bloom Animal Communication.

So partially I wanted to share  Um, what,  what came through for my dogs, because the wisdom I, Oh, the wisdom, but I also wanted to share how I go about finding these people. So I believe that everyone and everything is put on our place on purpose. And Johanna on Tik Tok started coming through on my, you know, my feed and I was like, Oh, this is interesting.

So I started catching a vibe. And what I do is I follow people for a while to see what are the things that they share? How do they remain in integrity? How, you know, like What magic do they bring to the world? And do I feel in my heart that this is true and resonant? So I've been following her for a while and I just loved it.

She shares quotes that come through from her sessions, usually on a monthly snapshot basis, and she'll share from like dogs, cats, horses, snakes, rabbits, you know, things like creatures like that. And it's so cool because there's so much, you know, snippets of wisdom that are just clear. And so I was like, listen, this is the time.

Partially because  Tiga, so when Nikolai and I came together, he had basically like a teeny farm with his ex wife. They lived in Wisconsin on 10 acres. They had barns. You know, she rides horses. That's her passion, which is amazing. And they had like five dogs and three cats.  And I have this two bedroom apartment in the cities.

And I was like, whoa, so when Nikolai and I, um, moved in, well he moved in with me, hey yo, thank you so much, uh, when he moved in with me. He brought Kuda, who is a German Shepherd, and Tika, who was a rescue. And then together we brought into our little family Nox, who is a Lynx Point Maine Coon, who's like 20 pounds of beauty.

He is, he's a model cat. He also is like kind of mean to me. So that's, I have a session with Johanna in March to be like,  Why does he pick on me? Because I feed him and I take care of him and I tell him I love him every day. Okay. Uh, and then, In November of 2024, we rescued Fern from the Animal Humane Society, and just like a little snippet,  Nikolai wanted to bring in another kitty because, you know, he had three cats, right?

And he thought maybe Nox needed a friend. And I was like, we are in a two bedroom small apartment. I cannot emotionally handle another being. I cannot. The level of care, right? Like  No, and then for fun, he was like, well, let's just go to the humane society and like pet kitties and things. And I was like, fine.

And like. When I was in college, I used to volunteer for the Animal Humane Society. I was a dog walker, so every Sunday I would go clean all their kennels and I would love them and I would tell them how wonderful they are and how they're going to find a home soon. Now feed them a little. And then, um, after my dog shift was up, I would go and sit in the elder kitty room and I would just talk to them and listen to the radio with them and pet them and everything and like I loved it.

But I also got tired  of, um, falling in love. And then,  Breaking my heart every time and not bringing them home and also cleaning up kennels is not my jam  That was that was not my jam, okay  But  so he was like, let's go do that and I was like fine and then we he was like, oh my god He started falling in love with these little beasties, which I knew he would he has a big heart.

Okay, he loves animals obviously and I was like, no, we're not getting another kitty so a few weeks go by and He saw this teeny little kitten come up on the Animal Humane Society website, and he's like, Can we please go check it out? And I'm like, Ugh,  fine.  So then we go, we're driving, and he's like so excited, he's like, We're gonna get a kitty today, and I was like, No, we're not, actually.

Chill vibes, okay? Like, we're just going to see this kitty, it'll be fine. We get there, and the moment we walk through the doors, guess who gets adopted?  That kitty and he was heartbroken and I am like, well, I'm not attached. I wasn't attached this entire time So I'm just gonna go look through the little kitty homes or whatever and just like tell them how wonderful they are And you know, they're gonna get adopted soon.

It's gonna be amazing So I'm walking by and I see these kitties and I go to the end of the hallway Because I see in this room that there's this 18 year old Maine Coon cat and they knew that this kitty wasn't going to be alive for much longer, but they were hoping that it would find a home of like a really loving family who could support this kitty in transition.

And so I need to see 18 years. Are you kidding me? You are, this is an ancient wise being. So I go and as I go to open the door. I turn to my right and through the glass door, I see this tiny tuxedo kitty with these beautiful green eyes and part of his ear was chopped. And he was just sitting at the top of this tree and it was so high it was eye level basically.

And I was like,  so I opened the door and I go up to him and he looks at me and I start petting him and he's like,  and I'm like, Oh.  Oh no.  And then he just let me pet him for like 45 minutes and I was like, Oh God, Oh no. And then I, I was like, Oh, am I going to do this? And Nikolai walked in and he sat down and I wanted to see how is the cat being held, right?

Like.  Do we have any issues here? So I pick up the kitty and he's great and I put him on Nikolai's lap and Nikolai starts petting him and he hears him purring too, and I'm like, oh no And I was like, we're gonna take him home. He's coming. He's coming home  And so I walked out of that room and I adopted Fern and he sat on Nikolai's lap for over an hour and Nikolai in the room was hearing like these people coming up and saying, Why is he in the room so long?

I want to meet this cat. Like, why does he get to hold him? And I'm like, listen, he's already mine. He was mine the moment. We locked eyes, to be fair, um, so thank you so much, but what was interesting in the process of him being adopted, I had learned part of his story, right, because they keep medical records and all that stuff. 

But, he had a chopped ear, which I'll explain in a moment, and he had, like, part of his tail is broken. But he was on the streets for five years. He had never been in a home. And I was like, oh, God, I'm a little nervous about this. He had never been in a home, and so the Humane Society was like, Hoo, hoo. Why are you bringing him in, right?

If he's been out in the streets and the lady said that she caught her next door neighbor putting, um, antifreeze into the the outdoor kitty food. That this neighbor was trying to kill off the neighborhood kitties not realizing what those cats do for the neighborhood, right? Especially from like mice control and things.

And. I was like, oh my God, he's coming with me. I'm going to love him for the rest of my life. It's going to be amazing.  So I brought him home and he is bar none the best cat I've ever had in my entire life. I was so afraid that he was going to hate it here, that he was going to spray everywhere, that he was going to be screaming his head off, that he was going to be climbing the walls to get out.

And he has been nothing but absolutely incredibly amazing. Like, to a point, I don't  If you have ever connected with an animal, you know, this, like, fern feels like a familiar. He feels like I've been with him in past lives. Like, I don't know what, I feel like he was with me in Egypt. I had a vision, like a flash vision of me, like, this is gonna sound, oh, this is gonna sound crazy.

It doesn't matter. Part of the thing with consciousness right now, as we continue to ascend, we're going to remember more from our Uh, past incarnations, especially the ones that are relevant. And I know, without a shadow of a doubt, I had an incarnation in Egypt, because when I was a child I was obsessed.

And I couldn't explain it. I was obsessed with ancient Egypt. I used to play games with ancient Egypt. I would go to the library and study all this information. I don't know why.  But ancient Egypt and the technology that was shared back then, especially around even the Atlantean times and Lumerian times, they're coming back online for us.

There's this theory that  I'm saying um because I'm trying to access these thoughts  because when ancient Or not ancient. When Atlantis fell,  a lot of us were there. And we are coming back now because we get to be enlightened beings in a body, should we so choose, which is really exciting. We get to come, you know, actually expand in love in really profound ways.

And we're going, and we're in the process of holding more light in our body. We're going to be having our DNA change. Should, should you want to go through this, right? Everything is a choice because you have sovereignty.  But it's just a really exciting time, even though everything is dark. I get it.  Part of that is remembering passing incarnations, if they're relevant for wisdom or skills or gifts or things that you're meant to bring through and or heal, right?

From a wound perspective, karmic perspective, things like that. So, I saw myself, a flash vision of me laying in a sarcophagus with Fern, but Fern didn't look the way that he did, he, and I can't really explain it because it, it was kind of like a fuzzy image, but it came in and out, and I was like, oh my god, this cat feels like me, like he feels like he's mine, not that I own anything, but I cannot describe the depth of connection that I feel in my heart when I see him, like he is, oh,  I went on a tangent.

Okay, but we brought him home and I'm so grateful that Nikolai felt such a push to, to doing this. So, all that to say,  in March I have a session to talk with Johanna from Bloom Animal Communication about kitties and how I can help make their life even more enriching and if they have any dietary issues and if they have any wisdom to share with me.

So, first, oh the energy is moving in my body, I need some water. 

When I connected with It was really cool because I gave her very little information, as I typically do, because I like to catch a vibe to see what are they picking up, because people who have worked with me.  And because I know about myself, I see patterns that come through in readings, as an example. When I work, and I'll share more about the angel communication session I had with this woman who I've worked with many times before, but one of the first things she told me, she's like, you're a heart healer.

And I'm like, I absolutely am. And, oh, oh my god, I just lost hearing in my left ear. Oh my god, it's such a high pitch ringing. Holy shit. What does that mean? Oh my god, that is so crazy  Okay.  Sorry that caught me off guard. That was really loud. I wish you could have heard it, but you may not have enjoyed that 

Okay  So I told Johanna very little and I was like, okay i'm gonna go into this mainly because I have a few questions about Tika and Kuda, and also just to see what comes through her. So, we were talking and she was picking up on how Tika has gut issues, because part of the thing is, is we've been taking Tika to the vet multiple times, and like, every time we go, it's six to seven hundred dollars every single time, because they have to do all this testing, because they can't figure out what's wrong with her, and then we have to get specialist referrals, and then that's more expensive, and I'm like, listen, this is, ugh. 

This is too much, you know, maybe someone who is willing to  see beyond the symptoms can help us get to the root of this since we are keeping the vet in business. Oh, Fern's down by me. Hi, hello handsome boy. Yeah, I love you.  Love this. I'm so lucky.  So we were talking and she was saying all these things that I was like, oh my god You're pulling through Tika's personality.

This is so amazing. So what we found as we were working together is that it totally is Stomach lining and gut issue and that her entire system is freaked out So Tika has been in a cone for months and it's like, oh, I don't want her to be in a cone I want her to be free I don't want her to be itching constantly like I don't want her to have all these issues obviously Which is why I booked a session with Johanna  But one of the first things without Johanna knowing anything she was like Tika saying I'm an expensive dog and I'm like, oh my god I feel so seen and she was sharing how unpasteurized if we can homemade Greek yogurt is helpful and sourdough bread and she said that Tika said she can smell it and it makes her tummy growl and it's as good as yogurt and I was like, oh my god.

And then she was saying that she loves when Nikolai is baking because she loves the smell and she loves when Nikolai is singing when he's baking and I, I love that because I also get treats when he's baking. Um, but Tika would like snacks throughout the process.  And then she was talking about some of the things that she loves, but one of the, um, where is it? 

It was just really interesting to hear more about her dietary issues and things like that and to, like, catch a vibe because the thing she was talking about, I was like, that's totally Tika's personality. So, Tika came into this session wanting to fix her gut health. Kuda, on the other hand, came in wanting to share wisdom.

And the thing about Kuda is This dude is one of, bar none, one of the smartest dogs I've ever met in my life. He also has energy that is Never ending. I have never, I have never been with such a smart, attentive, incredibly energetic dog. And people who have dogs, they'll be like, well, yeah, obviously he's a German Shepherd, and I'm like, but you don't understand.

I came in, like, I came into this meeting him when he was already a full adult dude.  So,  she, Johanna, Johanna, Johanna opened the session and she was like, Is Kuda very attentive? And I was like, yeah. And she said it's because he's trying to communicate. And so Kuda whines this incessantly high pitched whine, which I am extremely sensitive to sound and that, oh, it grinds my gears, okay, because I don't know what he wants because I can't, I'm like, I can't hear you.

What's happening? And he said that his anxiety is in his stomach and it stems from his sister Tika's pain and he's worried about her. And I was like, well, what about the high pitch whining and things? Especially when Nikolai is traveling because he travels for work, which Kuda is on such another level.

And he said that he doesn't like the coming and going. The coming and going. And he said that stress is bad for everyone,  and that he gets anxious whenever anyone splits up because it's dangerous to go off alone. That is his belief, which as a pack animal makes sense. And also, when Nikolai and his ex wife got divorced,  he never saw her again.

Not for not trying, obviously, but it's just really interesting, so I can see why he would have that thought process. And he also would like really love cooked eggs, and I was like, okay, great. Thank you so much.  And then he said he asked, because Johanna is channeling this information based on the questions I asked, right?

So she, all she has to do is look at the picture of of the animals and then she tunes into their frequency and she brings through information. And so one of the things that floored me is that Kuda asked, part of the reason why he's whining is he's like, why,  like, what's wrong? And because I don't hear that, I don't hear those words, I just hear high pitched whining.

And he asked Johanna to ask me, why are you not singing anymore?  I'm nervous about it. What's wrong? I'm worried about you. Why aren't you singing? And I was like,  I sat back and was like, yeah.  I, I sing when I'm happy, like I, that's how I know I'm in beautiful spirits, is because I just naturally can't help but sing.

And I haven't been singing for so long.  A large chunk of it is because of the job I'm in, because Monday through Friday, I don't want to be doing this. But there feels like a very specific reason why I'm there, even if I can't fully comprehend what it is. I feel like my energy is supposed to be there because I'm helping to revolutionize a system that is not built for humans thriving, you know?

Even if they can't hear me or my suggestions.  But it feels like it's not time to leave yet, and that's, that's a hard thing to battle.  So, he asked why I wasn't singing and I burst into tears because I'm like,  I really needed to hear that. He also was telling Johanna that he whines at me because he feels like he's in the dark.

And he asked, he wants to be told more of what's happening and I just never thought about doing that. And I know probably other people have done that, but I have never thought to include him and tell him what's happening. What's wrong with me? Why Nikolai is leaving? When will we be back? Things like that.

And, um, he wants to know because he wants to be involved. And then I quote, Kuda said, we can tackle the issue together. He wants to feel involved and included. He said, I can help energetically with some things in your world. If you include me and explain what's going on. You guys view me like a little kid.

And in some ways it's fair. In other ways, I want to be part of your world. I want to be in the know. And also some sourdough wouldn't go amiss,  which these, these dogs, man, I love them so much. Okay. Uh, and, and so he said that the sourdough would help his stomach anxiety. And I was like, okay, but also  this epiphany,  I have never thought of asking my pets for support.

I don't know, maybe because I have this belief that I'm working to heal, that I have to do everything myself. Firstborn in my family. Um. Has been a really interesting thing, right? Like if I can do this and also because I have Navigated a lot of trauma. I'm the one who has led myself through my own healing and you know launching my business and getting my degree To be able to work wherever like I have been I've been leading myself, you know, and that's empowering But also I bear the weight of the world on my shoulders on, like, to myself.

I do it to myself. So,  working with Johanna has expanded my perception of part of the role of pets in our lives, right? Like, they're brought to us on purpose because they have specific gifts and because they have things to share with us and, you know, for other like, energetic reasons, but I had not thought about  well, why couldn't they support me, you know?

And then Kuda had chimed in through Johanna and said most health problems have an emotional cause. And I'm like fucking god this this dude for real is so smart like  So  then Johanna had asked like do you have trouble with your skin? She was asking me and I actually do like I had um years ago I started having skin issues on my back where I had like a different colored patch of skin coming through and I was like, what is this?

I don't understand. And then on my face, I have like a red patch that won't go away and I, I had a dermatologist, because I went to go check for skin cancer, by the way, this is a teeny segue, my entire life, like I have freckles and red hair and I'm very pale, okay? And I have done my best with SPF and stuff like that, but I had this lingering feeling.

I'm like, I need to get my skin checked because I have so many freckles and I'm so fair. And also I have burned a number of times. Like one time in Hawaii, I burned so badly, so badly that I was like, this is, this is a problem. So I went to the dermatologist and asked her about the red patch on my face that I wear foundation over, right?

Because I'm like, what is this? And she shared that I have rosacea. And that I'll have it for the rest of my life. And that the only way to get rid of it is to take this topical cream that has been known to cause cancer. And I was like, that's so funny. That you That you're doing this right now, uh, but I also had my entire body checked and it was fascinating because as she went through and she checked my, my, I was going to say freckles and moles as reckles and no,  or maybe, who knows?

Uh, and I had one come through that she was like, we need to get this tested. And it was on my butt.  Like that has never, like this part of my butt has never seen the light of day, like ever, honestly ever. And I was like  Excuse me that that can happen and it was interesting because I I had shared on TikTok that you know if you can please go get your skin checked at least once a year because I had something that you know rang alarm bells for her and she wanted to check obviously and someone basically called me an idiot and said you should know as a redhead with fair skin that you should be getting your skin checked but I'm I didn't grow up with money, and when you don't have money, you, you look at going to the doctor as an expense that you can't afford, right, because, I mean, Nikolai, I had to take him to the, the emergency, or not the emergency room, urgent care,  uh, a few weeks ago because he had the flu that was so bad,  that, so bad, in fact, that he sweat through his, Entire sweatshirt and sweatpants and a fleece blanket and I tried to wake him up to give him water Because you need to stay hydrated and he's he came out and he looked through me He he heard my voice but and he was looking at me But he was looking through me and he was like I was looking at a white tunnel with no doors and i'm like, oh no So the next day I made a an appointment for him at urgent care and we got the bill and it was a thousand dollars and it was through his network we made an appointment and it wasn't an emergency room thing and i'm like a thousand dollars so thinking about going to the dermatologist is not a top of mind thought right but i'm glad i did because it didn't come back as cancer but i was like they had to remove it from my body and i'm like okay  but okay all of that to say first off i didn't i'm not taking that topical cream for rosacea i'm gonna heal it from the inside out and you heard it here okay so As I'm, as I'm healing it, it's gonna be amazing, and I'm not taking some cream, okay?

But, Kuda had shared that the trouble with my skin is linked to my stomach and also stress, and I, I thought that was fascinating. And then, as Johanna was talking to me, Kuda came through and said that he doesn't like my job.  And this made me cry. He said, your work is sucking the beauty out of you.  And then she said she saw an image of him growling and that he has a very protective energy about this and he doesn't like it.

And that made me cry because I feel like in this job,  I'm not the best version of myself. I'm not this, I'm not light and joyful and expansive and excited and giddy and overflowing with love. And that's part of my own process, my own mental process, right?  But also, I can see it reflected in how I am, you know?

Like, I know it's not me. Because who I am, when I pour my heart into anything, it's beautiful,  it's magical, I feel free, and that's part of the reason why I'm in this job, is to shift that, but also to have, to have Kuda see that and to say that, just, oh  man, so he  also, it was so great, oh my god, he,  he was like, can I teach her about how to manifest money, And I was like, Kuda can teach me how to manifest money.

But why wouldn't he? Because he's a greater being. With a very small, small, small, small,  you know, fractal of his oversoul that's embodied as a dog, bringing through specific wisdom and bringing through unconditional love, you know, why couldn't he teach me about that? But I had never heard of it. It didn't occur to me until I had this session, right?

I, I saw him as a kid. I saw him as a being I am taking care of, but not necessarily a partnership. So I thought you would be curious about what a dog had to say. A brilliant dog had to say about manifesting money. I can, I feel like I can see, I can see the email headline. That's like what my dog taught me about manifesting and how it's so click baby, but like, this is real.

This is so legit. And.  I'm just, I'm curious to hear what you have to say.  So what he shared through Johanna was,  you have to open this space on the inside of yourself.  You take deep breaths in and get yourself really calm.  And then, imagine or visualize the mental place you want to be in, not necessarily where you are. 

Visualize everything about the life you want. The physical house, the success, taking your dogs on a walk,  specifically.  Imagine how it feels to have it and try to experience that feeling right now. Now,  and then Kuda shared, your feelings change the world around you. What you're feeling on the inside, your reality will start to reflect that back to you. 

Put yourself in more situations that make you happy and make you feel calm.  Don't let work convince you that you need to be stressed out.  Like,  if you know anything about manifesting, you know that that's not news to you, but you know how clear it is. You know how it resonates in your being, right? Because imagination is the realm where your intuition can connect to magic.

And your ability to change your feelings allows you to become aware of those things that you desire on that frequency. Again, I know we say this. Often, but if you want certain, if you want certain things because you don't already have it, it's because they're on a different frequency wavelength than you.

And the way that you change that is everything is internal. So if you can change how you feel on the inside, how you think and how you act and respond to life and the action steps you take in order to bring those things to fruition, that is how you're able to perceive the things that you desire. It's through you inside. 

And I, I know this, but I forget it, because I allow myself to listen to my ego, which creates tunnel vision. And in that tunnel vision, it's often rooted in what, fear, frustration, anger, jealousy, resentment, bitterness, all these things. And yet the life that I desire is in love and expanded states of consciousness and joy and passion and curiosity.

And, and to have him say, you know, that you, No, not that to have him say that don't let work convince you that you need to be stressed out. I'm like  Yeah, actually I'm giving so much of my power away  stress is not something we're meant to carry, right? You have a nervous system that helps you be flexible so that you can respond accordingly based on the patterns that you have in the information that has been conditioned into your body, but also like you're meant to flex.

You're not meant to hold stress. And yet what do we do? We live in a world that is hell bent on keeping you in stress and lack and scarcity and here. Of course, then, right? Like, of course, you're going to experience reality to continue unfolding and fractaling in a way where it's not supportive of your greatest joy. 

But that's why we're changing it now. That's why it's so incredible that you're listening to me as I'm walking this journey and remembering Because if you can do that and remember that you don't have to let work stress you out that it's not that important and honestly We're all gonna die at some point.

So What, like, who cares? Truly. Um, and it doesn't make what we're going through any less hard or challenging or difficult. I'm just saying that you're more empowered than you think you are and I'm, I'm trying to remind you as I'm trying to remind myself. So Kuda also shared that he would be so happy to help me turn my brain off after work and he requested more quality time together.

And he said when we're focused on each other, you can, or, sorry.  Sometimes I read ahead and my brain is like, Whoa, what is happening? When we're focused on each other, he can energetically influence my mood. He does this very intentionally. And he said he brings joy because it relaxes the anxiety and stress, and that joy elevates the whole frequency of the home.

And then he shared this, which made me cry. He said, You are the heart, or the hearth, of the home. When your energy is depleted, so is everyone's.  But when your energy is happy and strong and confident, so is everyone's. It's actually protective. And he said, you need to get back to heart healing. And I,  I needed that,  you know,  I really needed that. 

So then as I was talking with Johanna, um, this is going to be a longer episode.  I'm going to share this because the context is really helpful. Back in 2020, I had a family trip to go to Mexico and my, like, this was a big family trip and we were going and we were going to stay at this incredible home that my aunt had invested in for us to make memories in.

that overlooked the ocean with the most incredible sunrises and sunsets. A walkable distance down to the beach where my sister and I would walk every morning to watch the sunrise and to listen to the waves and things, you know. And when we got to the house, there are different rooms that you could stay in and my sister, Heather, and I were going to stay in the same room and then everyone else could go do their own thing.

But I vividly remember this. It stuck with me.  At the time, in 2020, Um, we,  I think it was around March, we didn't really know about COVID.  Like it wasn't even, I had no idea about it, partially because I don't watch the news, but because people weren't really talking about it. And so  just to keep that in context, so we go and Heather and I are going to see this room that we're going to stay in and drop our bags off, right.

And then go exploring the home.  And  I remember there was this. this piece of art hanging on the wall that was right by the door that I would turn a right into to get into the room that had like green tile and these  Two beds or whatever and I remember looking at this and it was a green massive metal Gecko piece of art.

Which, side note, this home was so interesting because they even had like a Red Hot Chili Peppers music video filmed in it, you know, like  just very fascinating. So I see this gecko on the wall and I immediately get a terrible feeling about it, which is weird. I've not really experienced that before but I was like  Like, my body,  like, constricted, and I was like, oh, no, no, what is this?

And every time I walked by it, I got a terrible feeling, and I was like, ooh, I don't like that. Like, I literally said that out loud. I was like, ooh, I don't like that.  And then I went and dropped my bags off and then we went about our night or whatever. In the middle of the night, I'm having one of the most vivid, visceral nightmares. 

That was so fear based. And that gecko came through in my dream. And I, and I was like, what the fuck is this? Like, This is so, but you know your unconscious mind takes symbols and everything else and it's reflecting back to you images and and metaphors and things like that for messages, but also for healing and When you're in the dream state you're connecting to different realms dimensions And you know your ancestors your loved ones your spirit guides and all those things this My dream was so terrifying and I woke up in the middle of the night with a fever and body aches and chills and I was like, I, I have never been this sick.

Like I had, I don't even know what it was. It wasn't like mucus. I, it was obviously, but it couldn't come out. And every time I coughed, it was like I was choking from the inside out. I should have maybe had a disclaimer. I don't know these things. Um, but it, and I had such. a terrible flu, man. Like, I was shaking and everything else and I was the only one who got sick on that trip.

The only one. And this is where the problem happened.  So I, um, being sick and congested had to fly home, right? Like when we were done. And as we were flying, Because I was congested and it wouldn't go away, I, I had the most excruciating pain in my right ear. It was like a bubble formed inside my ear and it, it was so ungodly painful, I could barely stand it.

I don't, actually I don't even know how I got through it to be honest. It was so hard and so excruciating. So I come back and then we find out that COVID happens and I didn't know that there, like, we didn't test for COVID, we didn't even know it existed, right?  Flash forward to now, years later, five years later, I have a bubble in my ear that it's really interesting because as I live more of my life and become more in tune with my truth, when someone says something that is completely soul level truth, my ear pops, and that's how I know.

I'm like, oh, that's right, because it's also on my right side, right? I've been talking to my guides about this to confirm. It's really interesting.  To bring this back to CUDA, And my pets, basically. Like, I can hear Tika, pretty much. Um, I can hear  Nox sometimes. And by hear, I mean I either get a deep knowing of what she wants, or I hear kind of like  I hear words in my head that aren't mine, which people could say is like schizophrenia, but it's not. 

And I asked Johanna, I was like, I feel like I'm blocked from hearing CUDA. And she said, yes, you have an earplug. And she kept pulling on her right ear. And I was like, there's no way she could have known that. There is in no way she could have known that. Very few people know that I struggle with that. And.

She said, or Kuda said, it's the way that you're going to heal. This is to trust yourself and that my voice will come through when you're not expecting it. And when your mind is relaxed, that's when you're going to start hearing things. And Kuda said, it will be really clear. You'll know it's me. It's my personality and my voice.

Bossing you around. So trust yourself. And God, I wish you could understand. Kuta is so bossy. He is the bossiest dude. I love him, but man, and he's a shepherd, right? He herds. He like is herding the cats and things and he wants to do a good job and he wants to have tasks and And he'll tell you about how he feels and he's very vocal and things like that And I was like, oh my god,  and then a really interesting thing happened  As she was channeling Kuda, Kuda brought forward one of my spirit guides, and she was like, this is really interesting, I just felt the energy shift, and I was like, oh my god, what?

And she was like, it feels like it's someone from your spirit team bringing through a message for you, and she's like, I'm not a medium or anything like that, but sometimes the animals will be a bridge in order to bring through. A messenger, and I'm like, Oh my God, and she was sharing how, um, my fears and things like that, and my ear plug and all this stuff has to do with control and trying to feel like I'm in control. 

And that control is an illusion. It's better to let go and trust. And then the spirit guide said, Your work will catch you.  And I loved that.  I love that so much. And then Johanna asked, she was like, what is this deep fear I keep feeling with your work, like my business? And she was like, it feels like there was an event.

And when she said that, I was like, no, not an event. But then I was like, I know exactly the event that has been keeping me from going full time in my business. And that is, when I had to go back to corporate,  one of the most  painful things that I learned as I'm processing out loud with Johanna, the event was that I realized that my joy couldn't sustain me. 

And that  because my joy couldn't sustain me, that my joy wasn't  worthy and that people didn't want what I had to offer. But The core of it is that we are all beings of joy. And I was like,  like, I'm never gonna leave corporate then, you know? Because if my joy can't sustain me and the things that I love doing, what's the point? 

The world doesn't want what I have to offer, you know? And  So I processed that with her and she was saying the belief outside of that is that you fear that You're gonna run out of money and that's why you're not leaving and I'm like everyone needs to hear this part She said running out isn't real and when you can let go of that idea of oh my god, I'm gonna run out I'm gonna run out when you can let go of that.

That's when things start to change And my spirit guide shared through her, this is a trust fall with the universe.  Yes, it's frightening, but, and then she gave a metaphor, which if you have, if you've ever seen the movie Divergent,  there's a part where they leap off of a roof into a dark hole, not knowing that there's a net that's gonna catch them. 

And my spirit guide shared, the only way to get down is to fall. But you have to trust that someone's going to catch you. And isn't that interesting that I've been living my life believing that I don't have support and that I have to do it alone.  And I consciously know. I consciously know that's not true, but that doesn't mean that my body doesn't feel that way, you know, like it doesn't mean that I still don't have underlying beliefs of, you know, feeling like I won't be successful and, you know, what if I make the leap again and my joy can't sustain me and then, then what?

Because my friend brought me this job out of nowhere. Truly.  I, in getting this job, was one of the most effortless things that has ever happened to me.  And it just happened, and I'm, I'm like, oh yeah, like, magic happens, because why? Because I'm worthy of it. Because I'm worthy of experiencing it, you know?

And I also know that if you were to run out of money and more doesn't come in or opportunities don't come in, which is something we all fear because we collectively agree to this symbol that truly runs our lives, right? Even though, like you listened to the last episode, hopefully if you did, that we use money, paying attention to money as the only form of abundance, knowing it's a valve and not the ocean, even though we are literally the ocean connected to abundance itself because we are that, but to to trust in that and that if you do run out, then.

Then what are the underlying beliefs because you are always given what you need. You are always given what you need to expand through from a soul level perspective. So moving through growing up with no money, that was something that I wanted to go through from a soul perspective, even though it sucked, right?

Or watching my family go from feast to famine rapidly, like all of that served me. The trauma has served me. Every single experience has served me and is brought to me for very specific reasons in the same way for you. So. Can you actually run out when you're totally abundant and is it scary for your human?

Yeah, right?  Of course it is, but like,  this is why we're here and also in the future knowing that we're going to be moving to the quantum financial system and that money as it is today is going to be vastly different. The way that we live in the future is going to be incredibly beautiful. And I tell you that because I know because I've seen visions of it because part of my role Transcribed On earth right now is I'm I'm a seer I can see I pull through different gifts within myself in order to see What people can't see and although it can be tricky to trust in someone like me When the world outside looks completely different and is opposite especially if you're moving through healing lack consciousness and scarcity and you're Looking to the news and you're seeing only fear based propaganda and rhetoric and all of those things on purpose to fuel the fear that when someone like me is telling you, I need you to trust and know that beauty is coming and that you are the creator of your universe and that what you create is going to be magical if you believe it will be and you take action in accordance with it, that it will happen. 

Even if you can't see it and that's also the reminder of what right like we only see a very tiny Tiny amount of visible light on the whole spectrum. I mean bees and things see x ray We don't see that and so what does that mean? It doesn't exist, you know, just because you can't see it doesn't mean it's real Just because you can't see it doesn't mean that things aren't clicking into place and exactly the right time for you specifically So, I, I wanted to share this today because I thought it would be fascinating for you to hear about my animal communication session and also the wisdom that Kuda had to share because it was beautiful.

And I wanted to amplify Johanna knowing like, I don't receive anything for it, but she's wonderful. And it was also a side note, like, this is getting long, sorry, but I love this.  It was really cool watching her because you can do it either through Zoom or you can listen on the phone and talk to her. I wanted to do it on Zoom because I wanted to record it because I know that every time I work with a healer, I'm so present that I forget. 

And it's not to say that I wouldn't remember in divine timing, but I want to make it a little easier on myself. You know, I only have so much time after working an 8 or 5. 30 job, Monday through Friday for now, which is changing.  So I recorded it, grateful that I did because those insights came through that I obviously would have forgotten or distorted based on whatever, right?

But when you sit with her, it's really fascinating because you can watch when she's channeling. And so she'll talk to you and she'll ask you questions and then she'll pull through and then you can ask questions and all this stuff. But.  In my master NLP training, which is Neuro Linguistic Programming, which is basically the language of your unconscious mind, when I was going through all of my trainings to become certified and then master certified in this, one of the things that you learn is called visual cues.

And visual cues show you where they're accessing information in their brain, right? So, depending, and this is not like a, a hard scientific thing, it's still like, Flexing, but it's fascinating to watch just with this lens, right? So, when you are looking in certain directions, it's showing, you can see, Oh, are they making this information up?

Are they imagining it? Are they recalling a memory? Um, are they accessing this through an emotional response? Did they have a feeling around this that's tied to a memory? Or are they imagining it, right?  Just, it's really interesting how the brain works and how we store information, which is, you know, really fun. 

But as I was watching her channel this information,  she would look Over, up, and to the right, or no wait, I have to turn my, to the left, she would look as she was channeling information specifically from Tika or Kuda, it was up and to the left, and then I watched her as she would shift and look up and to the right as she was accessing information from previous animal sessions or memories or things that she has specifically experienced to be able to weave in her expertise, and that was so cool.

cool to see. And I'm like, okay, well, if anyone works with her, you know, maybe it's something to pay attention to or not. Like part of my role also is that I'm an observer and that that's one of the ways that I can see clearly through things and through beliefs and fears and so I can see the truth is because I observe.

But watching her access and channel information so clearly and then watching her shift to be able to pull through expertise is really cool and that's probably like really nerdy. I understand.  But I wanted to share with you because I'm geeking out about it, okay? So in the show notes, I'll drop Johanna's information if you're curious.

She's beautiful. Her energy is incredible, and I think she may come on to the Free Your Heart podcast, which is my other podcast where I amplify people's work in the world. Granted, I do them sporadically because I have to edit these podcast episodes, I only have so much time, and I only have so much desire to be on a computer, okay?

But I'll share that information and I just wanted to say thank you for being with me. I love you, and I hope that you have a wonderful, magical day.