What if time isn’t what you think it is?

Time is an interesting thing, isn't it? On one hand, it's not "real," yet on the other, it feels more real than anything in moments of suffering, fear, or death.

I'm excited to share a channeled message I received about time bending and how to use it as a tool for soul connection.

Disclaimer:
In this episode, I also share my personal experience with plant medicine, specifically cannabis, and why I choose to sit with it intentionally. This is not an endorsement or recommendation for anyone to use plant medicine, nor am I suggesting it has any particular healing properties. I’m not a doctor, therapist, or medical professional ... just a person sharing my own journey. If you’re curious about plant medicine, I encourage you to do your own research, listen to your body, and consult with a qualified expert before making any decisions.

Take what resonates, leave the rest, and always walk your path with discernment.

Transcript

 Hello, hello. I'm so excited to talk to you today. Oh my goodness next week I'm going on vacation So you won't see an episode or anything like that because i'll be like totally fully present and i'm gonna be Sitting by the waves and listening to the ocean and the birds and i'm gonna feel the breeze on my skin And i'm gonna have slow paced mornings And i'm gonna walk the beach every day and i'm gonna see the sunset and the sunrise and i'm so excited I can't tell you how much I need this Oh the vitamin c.

I need it, you know um also for Full transparency, I am, I'm a little high right now. I took a gummy and I wasn't nervous to tell you that because I'm like, Uh, what if people are like, oh no, she's spiritual bypassing or what if,  I never want to work with her again because she sits with, uh, plant medicine from time to time and then I'm like, you know what,  if you're gonna judge me. 

The judgment is also all your own, and that is fine. And also, I'm like, you know, uh, people who love me will love me no matter what.  But I wanted to share why I Actually like even started this when I was a teenager. I tried it and I hated it I became this like when I was on it. I didn't like how heavy I felt.

I didn't like how  Curmudgeon I was a total curm. Let me tell you I was such a curmudgeon and like  like fiery and I didn't understand so I tried it like two times and I was like Oh marijuana, and I can't be friends never again and  Then I had this thought later in life, I'm like, what if I,  what if I try it again?

To see if things have shifted internally inside me and what my experience would be because I've heard you know the stories run the gamut. Also, I was afraid to tell you because I thought like if you think I'm spiritual bypassing or if you think I um, I shouldn't be doing this or  What all those things look at even my little shadows are coming out  I'm I wanted to be transparent because I feel like honesty is an incredible healing gift if we would allow ourselves and also knowing that  Every time I face and integrate a shadow I fall more in love with myself And I just maybe that's a healing for you to hear one never knows  Oh, I was gonna say so when I had that those experiences and then I tried it again I tried it with I tried a gummy with friends and It was a totally different experience.

I felt like light and joyful and playful and I felt like huh  everything's so funny  and And then I had the thought that maybe there's something here if I sat with plant medicine, with reverence,  and with devotion, and with an intention for connection, what could happen? And  I have, I've had some profound breakthroughs, I swear to you.

Some of the most incredible life changing, life altering epiphanies have come when I've been in a higher perspective.  It's because, uh, yeah, I'm seeing through different lenses. I'm, I can see from a higher view of the experiences or the events and then I can see the way that things puzzle or click in together. 

I've also been able to connect with, uh, angels and with, uh, galactic beings. I one time  I sat and all these messages came through from the Council of Nine, and I didn't understand because I couldn't find anything on who the Council of Nine was, but the messages were so clear. And I was like, what? And then I was on TikTok, I think last year, and a woman was talking about how she was channeling the Council of Nine from the Galactic Federation.

And I was like, excuse me? Oh, I was like, wait, that was real? That's whoa. So today I wanted to share a message with you that I learned about time when I was having one of these. Ceremonial sessions, really,  and like,  I don't know if you do this, but I,  I go into it with an intention and with a lot of love, and I have my journal or my notes app open, and I just.

Live my life, like I'll start paying attention to my thoughts or if something catches my interest Usually I'm watching things that are spiritual because I'm a Scorpio Sun and I I live for this Okay, I live for it if you can't already tell  But,  I, like, I'll open that, I'll go and then something will hit an inspiration in me and then I'll start pulling the threads and unwinding it and it takes me on these rabbit holes of magic and wonder and curiosity and  I love it.

I don't do it all the time because, you know, you can develop a dependency and things like that and your, I think your serotonin levels and all the stuff it impacts, but every once in a while. It's fun to see what comes through and what I learned about myself or the world.  So, I wanted to share a message that I got about time.

And I'm very curious to hear if something resonates with you, lands with you, opens something within you, activates something.  Because, when I wrote this, I sat back and my jaw was like, what  is this? It's like I remembered it. It was like a remembering, an opening, where something could come through and I was at the right frequency or awareness to be able to capture it. 

An interesting little side story, which doesn't paint me in the best light, but that's okay, because Yes, that is all.  I remember I had a session, a channeling session, and all this information came through and I was like, Oh my god, and I went to Nikolai and I'm like, Nikolai, I have to tell you, by the way, if you don't know, Nikolai is the love of my life, okay?

I love him. He's in the other room building his little computer right now. I'm so grateful that he could do that because I could never.  Okay?  So, I went to him and I was like, I need to read this message to you, and let me tell you what, this man, he doesn't have to listen to a word I say, although I would require more love than that, to be fair.

I had a whole journey of healing my whole heart, um, after my last partner. I'll talk about that another day.  With Nikolai, he, I'm so lucky because he can hear me, and I mean, like, totally and completely hear. Me.  The level of space he holds for me, so that I can process these things out loud, and so I can hear his perspective and what he thinks, is, I'm so lucky, like, I am so lucky, because whoa, I, oh, oh. 

It's, uh, it's been, like, he is such a blessing in my life, good God.  But I went to share with him what I came through, and I'm like, oh my God, you got, I can't wait to tell you about this, yeah! And I was reading it, and at the end, he just looked at me blankly, and my heart sank, and I was like, what? What? Why do you look that way?

Like, tell me what you think and he's like, well, I already know this and I'm like, how, how do you already know this? I just came across it just like, you know, a minute ago, which by the way, he can, I don't know all the information he consumes, but let me tell you, because I am a Scorpio son and this has been my life, my whole life of the Curiosity of the occult and spiritual and metaphysical and magical, right?

Like it's been my whole life. Okay  when he looked at me and he said that I was like  huh, but then I like my heart sank because I was like, how did you know this before me? Which a is my ego? Hello ego. I see you and I love you. But also I was like, well, I was excited to teach him is my underlying thing. I was so excited to teach him something because maybe he would have an epiphany or learn something or maybe it would unlock something within him.

And I was like, yes, but then when it didn't happen, I was like, boo, because why I was attached. Okay.  Yeah. I'm learning a lot about attachment, which is good and awesome.  But  when I didn't get the reaction that I wanted, I was like, okay. So then I was like, well. How did you know this? Did you read it in a book or something?

You know, curiosity. And  he was like, well, it's like I remember it. And I'm like, wow. And he was like, well, it's because of the way that you teach.  You teach in a way where I feel like I know it to my core, like I understand it.  And when he said that, I was like, oh my god,  that  Okay, like I can, I can work with that because that feels like I'm explaining something with such crystal clarity that it resonates harmonically, you know, that, and maybe that's what truth feels like. 

Maybe true truth feels  like a remembering and that's how you know what is aligned with you, right? Hmm, okay, well, this came through about time and I wanted to share because it was illuminating for me.  And I was like, well, dang, aren't we just the best? Like, isn't our soul just so freaking cool, okay?  So, this came through last year.

The ability to speed up or slow down time is a mechanism by your consciousness to show you how aligned you are to your present joy.  It's a mechanism to show you if you're following your highest passion.  Because when you're doing what you love, time feels as if it speeds by.  Or almost like time doesn't exist.

As if it's not real.  But when you're misaligned,  time slows down.  You watch the clock tick tock.  The slowness of the movement allows you the illusion of a moment or a photo in the frame of the movie of your life that you're acting in. 

And then this question came through my ego. Why do you believe you have to do anything other than exactly what you want to? Which is interesting. Why do you believe you have to do anything other than exactly what you want to?  Can I just, like, as a sidestep?  When you sit with that,  everything comes up around your conditioning.

Well, that's just what reality is. Well, I have to pay my bills. Well, you know, this is the best person I think I'll ever be able to be with. Or, you know, or what if I don't get the job? Or what if I'm not smart enough? Or what if he leaves or she leaves? Or what if I'm not good enough? You know?  When you start looking at that, it's actually pretty eye opening.

Why do you believe you have to do anything other than exactly what you want to?  Hmm. Okay, back to the message. Thanks for listening.  The longer the amount of time feels, the more time to investigate what isn't aligned. 

The longer the amount of time feels, the more time to investigate what isn't aligned.  Where does time feel achingly slow?  Why does it feel that way?  What is it that you don't like or don't prefer?  What would you prefer?  That's why the heart filters energy through the form of joy, curiosity, passion, and love. 

Those are vibrationally higher frequencies that move more quickly. Unity, joy, bliss, oneness  are fast acting compared to fear, rage, shame, guilt.  And others.  But also, there are moments where you can be so beautifully present, where you wish time could just slow down or stop.  Isn't that paradoxical thinking? 

Everything is now, but our beliefs create the illusion of time frames. Which are frames of time.  A movie. A frame of time. A moment. Oh, frames of time equal a movie. A frame of time equals a moment. A frame of your time. Your lifetime.  My head is like, what?  A snapshot. A snap equating to rapid.  A still shot. A single moment experienced.

Time sped up creates the movie of your lifetime.  Oh, a snapshot. A snapshot equating to rapid. Like a quick capture of a frame. A still shot is a single moment experienced. Hmm. My  noodle is noodlin Next. What do you wish to unfold? What ideas? What creative pathways? What dreams?  Like, 

I just find that so fascinating.  Mainly,  I have like so many other messages, which caught me off guard. Sorry.  But I was thinking about  the only times when time feels just like punishingly slow is when I'm doing something I totally don't want to be doing but I feel like I can't do the opposite, the thing I really want to do  and so often that happens in my job  and so I just see the clock and it's just like,  oh my god, can you just get a freaking hurry on, man?

And then I'm like, well, I can't because I'm chained here. I'm chained to my desk. I can't go do anything else because I have to be doing this thing, you know? I put myself again into like a little mental prison. Mental? Mint? A mint in a mental prison.  And then you're like,  When you're doing something that you freaking love it's like time doesn't exist It doesn't matter or it stretches out so beautifully slowly That you're like, oh my god, this is heaven.

I am literally feeling heaven And where like what are you doing? When that happens, you know, like for me, like when you're reading a really good book and it's just like, Oh, I can't even believe, and then hours go by. Or when I'm thinking about a brand new offers or things that I'm working on in my business or things I want to tell you about, it's like time doesn't exist. 

I, it's shocking how, I'm like, wow, I'm full in love right now. I'm fully in love with this moment that I've created. That's what happens.  I'm fully in love with the moment I created. And because I love it, I'm present. And because presence is love, your presence is love. It's you. You're harmonizing.  You're stretching and bending time because you're living or experiencing a different dimension. 

Oh, I see. That makes a lot of sense.  And then when you're doing something you don't want to do, or you feel you have to do it and you don't want to do it, and you feel like you're chained, you're stuck, you're angry, you're frustrated, you're apathetic,  the energy is slower.  And so you're being invited to see  What are your beliefs in the moment?

Why do you believe you have to do that?  Or what do you need to believe instead that's more supportive of shifting the energy, your energy, to something in a higher frequency?  Yeah.  So really time is just a tool. That we've collectively agreed to of course But now the like I don't know if you've noticed this but then  actually I had someone tell me I was a time bender once That sounds so crazy  Out loud, but that makes sense Like if you understood how time works in comparison with your energy, why wouldn't you be able to bend time?

Or like have you ever  been? Late to something you were and then you're like, oh man, please just let me get there Like let me get there a minute or two before after and then somehow you get there Right when you asked has that ever happened to you? It's happened to me I also like you you I don't know if you know, but like I  Synchronistic numbers are incredible messages for me, and I see them all the time, and I make note of them in my quantum surprise list, which is my daily list of things where I keep track of the magical things that happen, the synchronistic numbers, if I hear repeating messages, if I have a download or a thought or something,  um, and, you know, just like,  It's my gratitude list also because I have people who like will buy me coffees or they'll buy me dinner or You know, i've had people buy wonderful people buy me trips before and and things like that I'm, actually very magical in abundance abundance.

I am though. I really am I swear  I, oh, so fun. I look for magic in life and because I look for it, I see it and I experience it and I wish that everyone could hear me when I say that. I wish everyone in the whole world could hear that because if they actually looked for the magic and they saw it, The whole world would change,  uh, but that's okay, they still want to work with contrast and there are dark beings running the show behind the scenes right now who are actively being dismantled  because the earth is ascending and we are releasing fear and judgment and greed and things like that and disconnection and the belief that we're separate from each other, you know, all of that is changing right now, which is like, wow, holy buckets.

I can't believe we get to be alive for this, but I can, because we were like, We're going to go there and we're going to be love on a beautiful planet and we're going to have front row seats to watch change in the most profound, epic way, collectively a species ascending. To higher levels of consciousness, kindness, and love.

Can you believe that? We got to be here for this. Actually, it's really interesting. I was talking to my mom. I got to be in a car ride with her for two whole hours and Like my mom is so bright. She's so bright. I  I know exactly why I picked her to be my mom. She is like the sun. She is one of the most, like, kindest, beautiful, thoughtful, caring women in the world, man.

Like, she has so many friends because She loves so fully and because she loves making people smile and feel special. That's her favorite thing. I swear to you. It's so cute Oh my god, she makes people smile and she helps people bring the light back in their eyes. It's so incredible She  like,  oh, I'm so lucky.

Also, I'm lucky because she's she allowed us to  grow up with spiritual belief systems.  She let us explore, um, magic and witchcraft and like telekinesis and telepathy and astral projecting and everything, because she's also curious, you know, she's very curious lady. And,  uh,  I'm just so lucky. Oh, my heart. 

But I was in the car with her, talking about spiritual things because she's totally here to vibe with it, right? And because she's a seeker like I am, we always bring different perspectives and we're like, did you see this? How does that feel to you? What do you think? What are you getting? It's really, really fun.

So I was talking to her and I lost my train of thought just now. There was a reason why. We were in the car talking about magical things. Oh, I was telling her about time bending. Look at that See my brain click click click, baby. Okay.  Oh  My god, I just feel like what i'm probably may probably lose a whole bunch of followers and listeners and that's okay I love them no matter what because unconditional love man.

I love you. No matter what. Okay, no matter what actually I'm gonna have you hear that one more time.  I love you. No matter what  You are an incredible being of light. Thank you for being with me on the planet during an insanely cool time.  So, time bending and synchronicities. I see synchronicities everywhere, right?

And I was like, mom, I, I was told like I'm a time bender and you know, blah, blah, blah, blah. And I was telling her how there was this one time last year, I went to visit my friend. My friends Melissa and Laurie in Texas and oh my god, okay So I come in because I'm like working away at my little laptop Clickety clacking away or whatever and it was during when we were having that solar eclipse, which was wild by the way, man  Oh, man,  that's why I was hanging out with them and we were like, oh, I loved it.

Okay  But we came inside after I put my laptop out or whatever took a break off of these meetings blah blah and I pick up my phone and I see the clock like to check the time to make sure before my next meeting happens and it was 1 12 and I was like oh cool and then I literally held it in my hand and I watched it move back to 1 11  and I was like what the what and so I looked up at the clock on her microwave and it was 1 12 at the same time that my phone said 1 11  and  I think that we think that we're not supported You know, I think we believe we don't have help because we can't see  because we can't see higher Frequency yet and that's coming your clarity of vision is coming and I saw this video Or this tiktok that explained it so well where say you're sitting here and you're looking outside and there's a jet flying by and it's like a jet that you see normally or an airplane and it's just flying by and then imagine it speeds up and then you're like okay and then it speeds up faster and faster as you're watching it go on a loop around you right like you can only see what's right in front of your eyes and as it's speeding up speeding up speeding up it starts just to change shape, right?

And that shape goes from a jet, as you know, down to, like, maybe a disc, to a blob, to nothing, the faster that it gets. And it's because we can only perceive a certain bandwidth of frequencies.  Like,  there are so many things we can't see.  When I was younger, I believed that Men in Black, the movie, was telling us the truth. 

And that's part of the way that those in power believe that they'll have everything they ever want and that's why they believe they can have what they want to such excess in power and manipulation. It's because they disclose information through the media.  And I think that we, we all, like there are beings all around us all the time who are, we just can't see until you have the right vision  so that you see things more clearly.

You know from a higher perspective  and it's gonna be jarring when we have disclosure and people realize that They have there have always been galactic beings here  Always like maybe we're the Martians, you know Maybe we were seated on the planet in a place that we weren't really meant to be or maybe our DNA was changed You know,  not that I haven't looked into this at all.

Let me tell you what okay because I love the y files On YouTube. I don't know if you want. I swear to you. Oh my god. I love the Y file so much  I tell everyone I can about him because his storytelling is so incredible and so riveting. And also the other reason why I like it is because he researches, like, with such depth. 

And he will tell you at the end whether he thinks it's true or not, or whether it's been verified or not. And I just love it. I love that, like, suspense. I love his passion. I love that there are things that I'm like, holy God,  wow. If this is even a fraction.  of the information we're going to learn. Ooh, people are going to be rocked, you know?

I'm going to be rocked. I can't wait. I'm so excited. Ah, God, I can't wait.  Um, and we're in the process of that. We get to see that. And you get to be here as an embodied being. You get to be here as an embodied being of light. Like, of love. You get to see this. You were chosen.  Like, you were chosen to be here. 

And that is astounding.  You know? So.  Thank you for being with me, and thank you for listening to this, uh, little moment. Um, what was I gonna tell you? I  had it in my head.  I'm looking through my phone. I'm taking up your time.  But I appreciate your attention. Hmm.  Oh man, I just got, whoa, that got a little crazy there. 

Okay, well, I'm curious if you get a chance  to contemplate the time message. And if that resonates with you,  I would love to know if you have ever experienced where time doesn't exist  and what were you doing? What was happening? What were you experiencing?  Because I know so many people have experienced where time is slow. 

Either from a safety perspective, where it's keeping you from like certain deaths, so that you can slow down time.  Or like near death, or pain, or whatever, which I totally experienced that when I was assaulted on my favorite hiking trail. It's like I passed, I passed by like the first man who was blocking the stairs.

And it was like time slowed down. Almost so that my unconscious mind could raise the flag so clearly that I would see it. But I was like,  I have a belief that I'm safe in here. I have a belief that people during the daylight at 6 p. m. Where other families are around wouldn't do anything to me, you know,  and so time slowed down.

But then, you know, the moments where  time speeds up or where it feels like it's non existent. I just would love to know that because I love beauty,  and I love hearing what makes people feel alive, and when you hear what makes people feel alive, and you, you hear their joy about it, it's like, I want to say it's kind of selfish, but it's, it's not, but it is because it makes me feel like, uh, life seeing life, and when I see aliveness, and I see this, it's, energy of life coursing through people. 

Man, is there, like, is there anything better than that? Because you get to see a part of their soul in that moment, you know?  And I'm like, when, when are times that I've done that? Oh, in recent memory, I don't really know, and that's kind of how I know I'm out of alignment. I've been paying a lot of attention to time  and,  but I have had snippets of moment with joy, yeah.

Oh, I see. Okay, I was just recalling that, okay. Uh, little noodle moments, right? Well, you, you're not gonna hear from me next week, but if you feel like sharing with me the times where you felt most alive, I would love to hear it and maybe I'll even like, oh, maybe if you let me I'll share it. That would be fun too, because then we give other people permission to also feel their joy and to chase their joy and to feel their most alive, because Then it's like looking at the sun and it's like  feeling  You know that feeling right like where your heart is so open and you're just like oh my god Maybe that happens for you when you're traveling.

I'm traveling next week. I can't wait. Okay. Thank you for listening to me um go on these tangents and You're wonderful and I love you and I'm so happy that we get to be here together no matter what time it is or day it is or when you hear this it's perfect because transmissions and recordings like this they live forever just like you and me so  thank you and I love you and I hope you have a wonderful magical day.