Attuned to abundance

Ahhh! It's been a while! We have some magical things to dig into. 😏

• I’m sharing what’s been unfolding behind the scenes ... the unexpected magic, lessons, and the moments that cracked my heart wide open!
• There’s a story about a cosmic sign that arrived at the perfect moment … and what it revealed about divine timing.
• You’ll hear about a new frequency I’ve been attuned to — one that’s already reshaping how I see, feel, and create in ways I didn’t know were possible.
• A familiar divine presence made an appearance in my angelic self-healing (this is new for me!)
• I tell a story that begins with pull tabs (yes, really) and ends with an instant manifestation ... and the deeper truth it uncovered about unconscious beliefs.
• We also explore how what we say we want often collides with what we believe we deserve, and the subtle ways that plays out in our energy.
• And I’ll leave you with two simple but powerful questions to help you see where your own contradictions might be keeping your magic just out of reach. 💸

I'm juuust going to leave this here: You are worthy. You are enough as you are. You are loved unconditionally for all of eternity. Your light profoundly matters. Anything you believe about yourself that is not rooted in love is a distortion. Thank you for being alive with me at this time. :)

P.S. This episode is inspired from Yeshuani's Code to Wealth TikTok teaching 💛

Transcript

 Hello, hello! Oh my goodness, it's been so long. My life has been crazy busy. Like I have, I have so many clients now, and I also was working with my mom, uh, for two weeks there full-time so that she could go on a vacation to Massachusetts. And Salem and Martha's Vineyard and all these beautiful places. And then Nikolai and I had a birthday, so mine's October 24th and his is October 27th.

And you know, like I'm not trying to work on any of those days because we're celebrating being alive, which I'm like, oh, we could, we could celebrate being alive every day. It's just really interesting. I don't know about you, but when it's my birthday, I just feel so zesty. I feel so like. Expansive. And I think it's because I am allowing myself to celebrate me and to celebrate, you know, another in like another year on this beautiful planet, which is fascinating.

And I'm like, this is the energy man. This is, this is so fun. I, I get to do this every day. Like why can't every day be my birthday? Why not? Um. Outside of that, I also got attuned to the third and fourth master level degree in angelic reiki. And I have a teeny story for you, but there's another topic that I wanted to share with you today.

So I think this is gonna be a shorter episode. So first and foremost, angelic reiki. I signed up for it level one and two earlier this year, I think in the spring. I think April, and I was doing it because I wanted to do it for myself. I wanted a healing modality that wasn't complex. So I am a master teacher level in Reiki, and I did all of that work because I wanted to be attuned at that level.

I don't use a sui Reiki because it is complex and it requires a certain level of. You obviously mastery, right? Like the symbols that they have are gorgeous and they were channeled. And also it's a whole process. And I am like, I am an energy being. And if I am attuned to certain frequencies, why can't I just hold the space to be able to flow that to other people and to allow that energy to go to exactly where it needs to go in the way it's meant to.

And so Angelic reiki came out of nowhere into my life from a woman named Lum Serene. And she is this beautiful human being. So I had a one-on-one session with her and I loved, I loved her energy so much. So when she said, oh yeah, I actually teach and attune people to angelic reiki. I was like, I'm in like, just whatever you want.

Put me down. Like I'm there. Okay. So I sign up and. It was a three day thing, so it's Friday, Saturday, Sunday, and I, if I remember it, was either four or five hours a day of teaching and attunements. And it was so much, it was honestly like, it was inspiring and exhausting. Um, especially after working full-time during the week, you know, like let alone getting more energy and being on a computer.

And so after that first weekend, the next day, it was so fascinating because it was so much for my system. So since I was a child, I've gotten cold sores. But what was interesting is that after that attunement that weekend, the full attunement, the, I got cold sores in my nose. It literally shifted and moved, and I was like.

Oh my God. That was so much charge for my body to handle. So when she said she was going to be teaching the third and fourth degree, I was excited and also kind of scared because that really sucked. It was super painful, you know? But angelic reiki has been the gift of my lifetime, like that this modality was made for me.

Truly, there's a whole process where, at least for me, you. Call in, um, source light. You call in source, you call in your higher self, you call in specific angels. You connect to the crystalline grid of new Earth like you are in a golden dome of protection. There's a whole thing, right? And the amount of times I have used angelic reiki when I was on the precipice of getting sick and I didn't get sick is crazy.

Like the experiences I've had. I know for certain that ever since my. First and second degree attunements. My clairvoyance has come on in such huge. Jaw dropping ways, like my dreams are so vivid now. I am getting these hits, these, these images in my mind space. I'm starting to hear my guides more clearly, like in their own ality, their own voice.

It's just like, it's such a gift and I haven't really been practicing on other people because I, I wanted to do this for me, but now I'm starting to feel the call after being attuned to three and four, because that energy was so. I can only say next level, like the energy is crazy. Okay, so when you get attuned to three and four, it's a three day thing again, but it's only for three hours, which was way easier on my system.

Lemme tell you what, but also the energy was so potent and powerful and deep. Intangible. I felt it coursing through my body. I felt the symbols being placed in my spinal column. I just, I loved it. We learned a technique about healing through eye contact, which was amazing, and she was sharing that when you are attuned to these levels, people being in your space, they will receive healings because of how.

What level of a frequency that you are naturally emanating, and that's why I wanted to do that. I wanna be in the world and have people receive angelic frequencies and maybe not know it, but know that their higher self is like you were put here at this specific time so that you could be around this person potentially.

You never know, right? Like I always am trying to spread. The most love possible. And so to be able to do that without speaking to someone and knowing that they're gonna get exactly what they need when they need it, is just divine to me. And so. I came out of three and four. Oh on the fourth level attunement.

It was crazy. So on the last day, we are led through first this massive clearing, which is beautiful and crazy and like it totally moves your body and you see colors and all this stuff. But we were guided through a multidimensional meditation and. The next part of the meditation is you go to the angelic kingdom of light and you meet various angels or groups of angels or beings.

And they not only attune you, but they also give you a blessing. And the moment, I swear to you, the moment em started, that meditation, fireworks started going off. They went for 35, 40 minutes during this entire meditative experience and attunement. The moment she closed the session and closed the attunement, the fireworks stopped.

They were going off because it was Ali, the Hindu Festival of Lights. But to me, it honestly felt like a cosmic applause, like alignment, like you were meant to be there and we're celebrating you, choosing you. You know, so I'm really excited because after November I have one class with Nilo and the cohort I was with, and then I will have every single thing that I need in order to teach and attune levels one through four.

And it's quite a process. I'm not gonna lie to you, and it's kind of daunting when I think about. What it will take to bring this to people who feel called. But I also know that I have used angelic reiki at least once a week since the moment I was attuned, and I know that my gifts have opened and expanded in the most incredible, beautiful, honestly heavenly ways.

My channeling has changed. I can feel energy so differently now when I'm around other people who are healers, like my friend, her name is Whitney. I had a chakra. Reset session that, um, just came out of nowhere. She was totally a quantum surprise. I met her on TikTok. Um, when I was across from her, I literally felt her energy in my heart and in my throat.

I could feel specifically what she was doing in my body before she even told me what was happening. People tell me all the time, like, oh my God, you're so bright. Like I love being around you. I always feel better in your presence. And I'm like, it's me. And it's also the angels, you know, and my, my willingness to choose to be a source of love on the planet.

So I'm excited to do this. And to attune people. And I'm a little bit nervous about it because I am a hermit crab and I spend a lot of time at home alone or on walks with the dogs. And, um, a lot of my friends and people who know me intimately know that like I don't see my, my friends often because I need to be alone a lot.

Because being out in the world takes a lot of energy from me or being in other people's presences. Like, it just, it's, it's draining, you know? And so, and I say that with a lot of love, but it's tricky. So thinking that I am going to be holding space and teaching and attuning for. Maybe four to five hours for a full weekend is three days is crazy.

So I'm like working with the angels to be able to hold more light, and that was one of the things I realized because I kept seeing 1 44 everywhere and I know that 1, 4, 4 from. An angelic perspective is divine mission, but it's also about holding more light in your body and doing the work necessary in order to shed the density or the dross.

As one of my favorite people on the planet right now, Dr. David Clements calls that purge process. You're limiting beliefs. Anything that you've been holding onto that you don't want to let go of, um, you know, emotional charges in your body that you've held onto trauma, things like that. So I just like, it's magnificent.

Oh, and also what was so crazy is that, uh, the, that two things. One a few days after my attunement, no, the next day after my attunement. My fourth degree, I was sitting there and the left side of my lip started quivering and it wouldn't stop spasming like for, I don't even know, 15 minutes. It was so weird, and I was like, what is happening?

And then I realized that the left side is where I would get cold sores. But I never got one, which is interesting. So I wonder as I continue through this process, if maybe that is no longer a part of my timeline, no longer part of my physical body. And if it is, okay, cool, I'll, I'll rock with it. Because I used to have a lot of shame around it, even though there was nothing I could do about it.

It was just my body telling me that I was super stressed or dehydrated or getting sick, or I was in too much sun, you know? But our society has a way of making you feel small when you are. An eternal soul, which is a curious thing. Um, but outside of that, because I had been so busy, I didn't get a chance to sit down and do my own self-healing, which is what I do every week, right?

And so finally I had the time I felt so called to it, and I was like, oh, I'm curious to see what happens in the energy and in this space now that I have these new symbols and these new frequency codes. You know? So I'm sitting there and I go through the process and the energy feels like. Tangible, like physically, viscerally, tangible.

I, I wish I, I don't know how to articulate it, but as I'm sitting there in my mind's eye, I see a woman step forward and she's wearing a dark red cloak, and I watch her and I realize it's Mary Magdalene, and like, these things don't happen to me. I like, they really don't. So it's just weird to say this out loud, but I'm like, why are you here?

So I'm sitting there and I invite her in to my self-healing session and the moment she steps forward, she goes immediately to my throat and I feel this massive amount of heat and pressure on my throat and in my heart. And I'm like, oh my God, she is connecting my bridge. And I felt my entire left side start to vibrate and I saw like sparkles on that side in my mind's eye.

And as she's doing that, I feel this energy step forward and I realize it's ua and UA is stepping forward to complete the circuit. And I feel my, my right side start to spasm and I feel this energy vibrating through me, but it's not as intense as Mary Magdalene's. And again, I think it's because he came to complete the circuit of wholeness, right?

Your divine, feminine and masculine as one whole being. I just thought that was fascinating. So I'm very curious because I have this idea of starting to do distance angelic reiki on people, but I've had a lot of like mindset stuff around it because I'm like, is it as potent versus feeling people's energy in in my space with me?

Things like that. But also like if I'm getting images like that, why not? Another cool thing, so sorry, just to go back to my attunement on the fourth day after. We closed the session, I walked out of my room and I saw a gift laying there that I had ordered for myself. And it is the angelic light work Oracle deck from Elena Fairchild.

And I got that because I think I'm gonna start weaving them into my sessions, um, because I have used Oracle cards before, but I mean, why not have one with the angelic energy, you know? And so it was so cool because it was delivered early and that felt like an alignment gift, you know, like. Thank you so much for coming on time, before time, right on time.

So all of that to say I'm still in this like playful process of seeing what I wanna do, what I wanna offer people, how I wanna work with energy. And I'm also like, I. Knee deep in clients right now from a mindset and unconscious mind perspective and helping them shift limiting beliefs and things like that.

So I just, I need to see, um, but outside of all those wonderful things, there's actually a specific reason why I am doing this now, this episode, and it's because I wanna talk about briefly a story that I am allowed to share that is about wealth and abundance. I just think like, why the heck not? You know, like as things are crumbling around us, as the economy is crumbling, as people are being laid off from their jobs and the thing they thought brought them security, right?

As people are losing one of the most critical things that should be a fundamental human right. Food, food and water, the snap benefits being on pause and all this stuff, like we're seeing these systems crumble and realizing this is not it. Food and water are a fundamental human right. Clean air is a fundamental human right.

What are we doing? Why are we giving our power away to systems and mainly people who ward wealth when money is energy and we are energy, and we can be infinitely abundant and resourced as source. So I came across this TikTok from one of my most favorite creators. Her name is Yani. She is. Absolutely incredible and I, if you follow me there, you probably have seen me share a number of her stuff because she is an architect, meaning she understands with crystal clarity and precision how to create.

Reality. So a lot of her stuff is rooted in that. And it's actually really interesting because YAI is neurodivergent and she celebrates neurodivergence and it's so wonderful. And also I can see how triggered people get in her comment section because she speaks this mechanical language. Like people often think that she's actually ai, she's not.

She just speaks with this vocabulary and with this precision that people don't quite understand and they also aren't willing to go deeper, which is interesting because I'm like, you could start googling some of these things, or asking more questions or like going down rabbit holes, but some people will be led to exactly where they're meant to in that moment and no further, which is okay.

But Yani posted a TikTok and on it, it's called Code to Wealth. And her whole thing is about manifesting wealth in abundance. But what happens when you have contradictory beliefs? And so she gave two examples, um, as like say you are desiring more money, more financial wealth, right? And you want that. And you say you want it, but then you feel guilty for wanting more from an unconscious perspective.

Or another one say you have these really big dreams, right? Right. But then you tell yourself, be realistic, which is fascinating because when you have these big dreams, you're allowing yourself to be in a dream space, which is in a different frequency altogether, and then your ego mind comes in and tells you to be realistic, and yet you are the one creating your reality.

So what's more realistic to dream and create from that energetic space or to live in a reality you don't wanna be in, you don't want to experience. Right. Isn't that fascinating? I shared that TikTok, um, and I'll, I'll try to link to it in the show notes, although, you know, sometimes things glitch and then I'll, you may not be able to see the video, but you know, I'm gonna do my best.

So I shared this and one of my very best friends one. Who, like, I'm just gonna give you a little context about her, but one of my very best friends was like, oh, I have a story for you. I totally understand what she's talking about. Which is like, so fun that I get to talk to people about this stuff because I love it.

Uh, but she, this woman, my friend. Is Barn none. One of the most generous, kind, and caring and giving human beings I have ever met in my entire life. Ever, ever, ever. She is so beyond generous. Um, she has had a very hard life, like very, very, very hard. Her and I, um. It's, it's kind of interesting actually, because when we were younger, we met each other in, I think middle school, like the early years of middle school, and she was new to my school.

And it was so weird because people were saying that we hated each other. And because we were in middle school, we believe what people were saying. And we were like, oh, she hates me. Well, I don't like her. And she didn't like me, right? Because she thought I hated her. And then one day we were put together and we realized that we are magical and that we were meant to be friends.

And I just. This is why we don't listen to other people. Okay? We listen to ourselves. If people didn't get in my head, I could have been her friend faster. Okay? Um, this woman also, I was her maid of honor in her wedding. Okay? Lemme tell you what, and by maid of honor, her sister was her maid of honor, but I was the one who delivered the speech.

So I kind of feel like I was made maid of honor counts. Um, but she hasn't had an easy life. Um, sh her and I both grew up with scarcity and lack. A lot of it, she was parentified just like me, and she has been a caretaker her whole life. She has not had it easy. She has worked a very, very, very long time as a caregiver.

Now she's a certified nursing assistant, so she is a professional caregiver and supporting people. In a myriad of ways. She is just my jaw drops when I think about her. Her heart is so big. If you are going through hardship, she is the one you want standing by you because she has got you. And so, um, one of the things about her too is that I remember sitting across from her, we had gone on a walk and we went to a little cafe and we were getting lunch and I was like, I had this epiphany.

And I'm like, oh my God, you're a death angel. And she looked at me and her jaw dropped, and her eyes got huge. And she was like, it's interesting that you say that because I've been thinking about becoming a death doula. And I was like, you ha, like you have to follow this. There's a very specific reason. Oh, my computer decided that it is tired.

One second. Oh, keyboard. You hear me clicking? This is my fancy keyboard. Oh my God. It's not working. Why? Please gimme a moment.

Okay. Oh my God. You ever try to type your password? You ever try to type your password and then you misspell it because you're trying to rush through it? Okay, here we are. Whew. So sorry for that little brief interruption. She, she wants to become a death doula because she, she was right there with her father when he was, um.

Dying from alcoholism. She watched the suffering, she watched the pain she had to like, she held space in such an incredible, profound way. You know, um, her mom right now is transitioning to, to her next space beyond earth because of cancer. She also had, um. She was supposed to bring her baby through and he wasn't ready to come through.

So she experienced that. And so she also is a mom, um, and a wife and a wonderful human being. And she has a lot on her plate right now. So. The fact that we can have these conversations about abundance means a lot to me because I know that so much of it is energetics and beliefs and then how you move from that place.

So I had shared, I wanted to share all that with you just to give you a glimpse of how generous and beautiful she is, because this is gonna come up again. I don't just say things to say things. So I shared that video that Yani was talking about and she was like, well, it's so interesting because I like, I know like.

I know this and I'm like, tell, tell me more. Okay. And she was like, this makes a lot of sense to me. And so she was messaging me and she was like, it's funny, the image I got when she was speaking at the beginning, which is the thing I shared with you about guilty for wanting more or being realistic, she was saying, um, was the fact that I was, I speak the words about being abundant.

I speak abundance. I am looking for abundance, right? But even though I speak it inside, I feel guilty. Who am I to think I should have more than others? It's selfish, et cetera. And she was saying, I specifically think about when my husband and I play pole tabs, I want to win. But also in the back of my mind, I'm already telling myself, oh, it's fine if nothing comes of it, but that kind of sucks.

And then she said, and my sister always wins and usually large amounts of money, but she's a hell of a lot better at being selfish than me. Does that make sense? And I was like, yeah, of course that makes sense because your beliefs are going to prove you right? And they're going to do it even if it doesn't make logical sense, even if it actually is harmful to you.

So if you believe that you are a generous person. And that people who have more than you or always win or always get what they want, if they're selfish, well, you are not a selfish human being are you? So why would you then receive the thing that you want that makes people selfish? And I just, I loved that.

And also the, um, even if people are selfish, right? Like which they're, they are, um, when you project onto other people, you project your own beliefs, right? You project whatever it is. Your own stuff onto other people. So her sister may actually fully be selfish, but it's the fact that she is projecting these beliefs onto this person whom she loves, which may or may not be true.

But what matters is the selfish sister is winning large amounts of money at pull tabs. Well, her sister doesn't probably intrinsically believe that she's selfish. She probably believes that she's a wonderful, worthy human being and she's gonna move from that place. And sometimes that puts other people in really hard spots, but she's doing it because she is taking care of herself, right?

And so she may fully believe, like her sister may be acting in full faith and belief that she's worthy, even if her behavior comes off as selfish. So of course she would win, right? Because she, she is an energetic match. For receiving because that's how she lives her life, right? So I love that. And so my, I was sharing that with my friend just because I thought it was brilliant what, what she was walking through and she responded back and I just love this so much, she said, so I'm driving home from dinner with my sister and my brother's dad and typically they like to play pole tabs.

So when my sister picked up, um. Pick the place. I told her, oh, pick, pick a place of pull tabs. And um, I've been very much thinking about the video you sent me and the conversation we had. So at the end, my sister was like, oh, do we wanna play pull tabs? And I was like, yeah, let's do it. And so they gave me the money to go pick out a box.

And as I'm walking over to get the box with the pull tabs, I'm telling myself, you deserve this. It's not that you think you don't, you absolutely do deserve this and you need to believe that you deserve this. And then she shares, not only did we pick multiple winners, and then we played back our smaller winners, but we also pulled the 200.

So it's just kind of cool, the little validation. And she was like, I thought you would enjoy hearing that. And I was like, girl, what are you talking about? I love hearing that. That was so magical because is that not. Isn't that magnificent? To be able to have that epiphany about knowing like, Hmm, you know what, maybe someone else is selfish, but maybe there's something energetically there that instead of negatively distorting it and placing that on them, I can in fact place the mirror and face it to myself to see.

What are the beliefs that I carry that do not make me a match for the thing I say I desire? And so like, and I just wanted to give a few more examples. So like, I want money, but people who win are selfish. That's one contradictory belief. Another one I desire love, but the contradictory belief is at a deeper level, love makes me lose myself.

And I have, I have walked that journey. I have given so fully, I have lost myself to my previous partners. And then I realize what am I doing? Losing myself. I am what makes this dance magical? The next one I want to be seen, but the contradictory belief is attention feels unsafe, and that one has been a core one that I have been working to shift for years because.

I would get so bitter and resentful at people who are sharing the most basic, in my mind, in my judgment shit online. And I'm like, what is this? From a spiritual perspective, why are people eating this up? Why is this the thing that goes viral? It's nonsense. It's. Nothing. Why is it that, you know, people are so obsessed with like Botox and needing things outside of themselves and people are like 10 tips to dah, dah, dah, dah, to make you feel this type of way.

And then I'm like, oh yeah. At an unconscious level, people don't believe that they're worthy as they are. They don't believe they're enough. They don't believe they're genuinely beautiful without anything like all of these things. But it's like, why can't I be seen? And then when I go at a deeper level. It wasn't safe to be seen in my home.

And I mean like not just from my mom, like it's different, but with my dad, he is an incredible human being. But growing up he had anger in a way that was just, I so traumatizing and he could just add a flip of a switch, lose his mind. So I learned. How to read energy. I learned how to use humor to diffuse situations.

I learned how to have him feel heard, how to be able to find balance. I learned how to protect my siblings. I learned how to do all of that because I needed to from a place of safety and survival. And then moving forward, I, I saw my mom. And my mom is this beautiful, brilliant light. Like people love her.

She has always been a, you can sit with me at this table. Everyone is welcome and she will see you, and she will love you for exactly who you are. And yet she was like. What is that word? Moths to a flame. People would come to her, people who had these deep wounds, they wanted her to heal, that she couldn't without overgiving herself to a place of absolute detriment.

The people pleasing, not wanting to rock the boat, people who were takers because they saw someone with this brilliant light and they felt special and safe, and they wanted more and more and more. And that's what I saw. I saw her lose herself to people because she wanted them to feel special and loved, and yet she wasn't pouring that back into herself.

And so I watched her bring, and part of it too also is because in, it's just a thing, man, but like growing up in the paranormal world where, you know, I watched the shows. And also I was part of a paranormal team, and not to prove that ghosts are real, but to help people connect and to send messages and to have them realize that they're love incarnated and that they can go home anytime they want.

Things like that, right? The paranormal world, people want this fame. They want, they want, they crave it. They want that type of meaning and that type of power. And then you watch them just like bow down to these strangers on TV who are like doing everything possible to create experiences that generate fear and are disrespectful to energies and to spirits all together.

And I'm sitting there like, what is it? And then you meet these people in real life and you're like, this is it. Honestly a joke. Why are you famous? Why do you have this following right? Like what is happening? But I realized like the brighter you are, you could actually attract people who are not good for you.

People who will take from you, people who will do anything it takes to step on you, to take your light, to push you down, to take what you have. I saw that because I saw that specifically happen to my mom. So, of course then if it's not safe to be seen in your home, it's not safe to be seen as your authentic self.

It's not safe to be seen if you have these specific wounds that attract people who have, you know, things that they want from you and will take from you. Of course, that would be scary, right? Because. If I am seen, then what could happen. And so I just wanted to share that because I wonder if maybe there is something that you desire that you're like, uh, I have a contradictory belief, right?

Like, maybe there's something in you. Again, I wanna be seen, but attention feels unsafe, so energetically. I could show up and and be myself, but I'm not gonna be my authentic self, which I wasn't for so long on my social media. I wasn't this weird, silly, like my rising sign is Aquarius. I wasn't talking about aliens and angels and all these things because I believed that to be seen was unsafe.

And then what happened? I would get so bitter and resentful and be like, why can't people see me? Why are people following me? I have wonderful things to say. What's wrong with me? Why can't I be heard? But it wasn't safe to do so to to my belief system. And because my belief systems create worlds, it's going to create a world where I am safe in being unseen.

Right? And now I'm over here. Like I don't have to be serious to be seen. I don't have to be like, that was what another belief. I had to be serious to be respected so that I could be seen as someone safe enough to work with, especially when we are walking through, um, things around your nervous system, your unconscious mind, your heart heartbreak, um, painful experiences, challenges, hardships, things like that.

I thought I had to be that type of way, and then people would respect me and feel safe and wanna work with me, and that's not what happened. It did happen. Enough times, but not to the level that it's happening now. And I'm like, oh yeah, I like the more authentic I am just for the joy of it. The more people are resonating with me and finding me and booking in, the more opportunities are coming to me.

Like things are happening in such a profound way because I'm like. I don't care if you see me or you don't. I am going to see me. I believe. I believe that what I have to say matters. And if no one hears it, it does not matter because I still spoke my truth. I still honored me. So two questions that you could ask yourself.

What's something I say I want and what part of me feels uncomfortable if I actually got it? Or another way to think about it. If I got what I say I want, what would I make that mean about me? And when you go to that part of like, what would I make that mean about me? You're gonna have this instantaneous, probably thought that's like surface level.

I want you to go deeper. Do you have a belief that people. Selfish or that you would be selfish if you had more money or if you had more power, you would wield it unwisely and hurt people. Do you believe that you have, you know, this voice that should be heard and yet it's actually not safe because you doubt your truth.

You say you want or you desire. 'cause the energy of want is tricky. We don't want things, you know, because wanting puts you in a state of lack and more wanting, and that's not sexy. But like love you say you want love, but do you have a belief that you lose yourself or that it's hard or that there are no good people out there, whatever that is.

It's just like when you sit with yourself and it's like, what will I make that mean about me? What are you projecting onto yourself? What are you projecting onto other people? Right? And when you move through the world in that way and you see people as mirrors, you can actually make every interaction a gift for you.

So sure there are genuinely like. Negative energies out there. That's not what I'm talking about. People who intentionally are cruel and do specific harm for the pleasure of it. Not that that's not it, but when you have people in your life who trigger you and you are like, they're so this, they're so that, they're so that.

I wonder if there's something deeper in you. There's a part of you that maybe wishes you could be more expressed or you could be seen that way, or you could experience the things that they've experienced, right? Like, what is it that you desire? And if you have it, what will you make it mean about you? So I hope that this was insightful and um, it went a little bit longer than I thought, but I need to go eat dinner now.

So I love you. Thank you for being with me, and I hope you have a wonderful magical day.